I found out I was pregnant at 11 weeks. I took a digital test and the results were “Pregnant 3+ weeks” , my heart dropped. I am 23 years old, just for context I am a married immigrant and I’ve got no one in this country but my husband. As soon as I told him I broke into tears, even tho I had always said that if I were pregnant before 26-27 I would had an abortion the thought of actually murdering my baby was too much, I started to cry. All my husband could do was tell me it was going to be okay but then he said “Why are you overreacting so much? Like, why are you crying? I don’t understand. You act if it’s like the worst thing it could have ever happened.” Like what the hell? Of course it’s a horrible thing. He’s jobless, he smokes a lot of weed and he can never keep a job. I knew in my heart he wouldn’t come through if I decided to keep this baby, I know he would just leave me and resent me forever if I kept it. However, when I asked him he said he would support whatever I wanted to do but that he thought we were and ready, and I agreed. I know 23 is not so young, but I feel very immature and I absolutely did not feel ready for a kid. I made an appointment at a local clinic and went for an ultra sound, I saw my little peanut. I kept the picture. I still decided to make an appointment for the abortion, and all this time I feel in my heart like it was the right choice until the night before… I just kept thinking “Does it have a soul?” “Is it a she? A He? “ “Does he have his eyes?” The day came and I went there. I did what I did and he just doesn’t give a damn, he can never feel the way I feel, and it made me realize he just doesn’t love me the way he say he does. I regret it. I should have left and kept you, I’m sorry. I know I could have done it alone, I’m sorry for not being brave. I’m really sorry for not realizing I wanted to meet you before it was too late.
I’ve never been a regular period type of girl, so my period being late 2-3 weeks is my normal. I found out I was pregnant at 11 weeks, I know what you must think… how the hell did you not know? Well, I didn’t miss one period, sure they were late but not one missed. One day, I realized my periods were 1-2 days shorter and I had what felt like menstrual cramps 24/7 so I decided to take a test… I took a digital test and the results said “Pregnant 3+ weeks”. My heart dropped, I’m married but I am in my early 20s. I instantly knew I wasn’t ready, it’s not what I wanted, it would change my entire life and a million of thoughts crossed my mind. I left the bathroom and broke the news to my husband and as soon as I did I started crying my eyes out. It’s almost been a week and I am still bleeding. I resent him, I resent him so much. Although we took this decision together, I am grieving and I feel guilty and he doesn’t seem to give a Damn. I can’t help to think I made a mistake but it’s too late, I am sad, I feel so much guilt and anger and he doesn’t seem to care. Is that it? My baby is just gone? The thing is I love my husband, I truly do but I feel like he did not care at all, I am dealing with the loss alone . I should of just ran, I should have left and kept the baby, I could have done it alone, I feel so lost and nobody around me knows. I am scared I’ll be judged. I really resent him for not caring, how can he not care? I wish I could do things differently.
Im 24 years old and have had 2 secret abortions. My first one was back in 2016 and my second one is very recent, a month ago. I still ask myself why I did it, I was just selfish and didn’t give myself time to think it through as no one forced me to do it.My heart is heavy. I find myself crying every night , worse I’ve had dreams holding a sweet little girl and a cute baby boy and they look pretty much alike and I know it’s them . wishing I could turn back the time and make the right choice. I wish to hold my kids and tell them how sorry I am. I want them back so badly that I even I want to try get pregnant again like now. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself unless I get pregnant again .
The signs were there I tried to abort the first time it didn’t work out didn’t know that
God was trying to show me that I shouldn’t do it but I ended up doing it the second time its been 5 months now I asked God for forgiveness and I have decided to give my life to God lam now a new creation yes what I did was wring but I’m happy also because that situation it has helped me to be closer to God I have decided to leave my dirty life and choose the right way …Don’t let the guilty feeling stop you you cannot change the past but you can change your present give your life to God he is an awesome God he will surely forgive you from your sins if you’re a young girl or a woman who is thinking about abortion think about your baby’s life give your baby a chance to live no problem is worthy more than your baby’s life that baby is a precious gift from God …for those that have already did abortion repent ask God for forgiveness he is faithful and he will surely for give you
This is my third time writing but today I’m here to give hope to those that are living with guilty feeling and regret just like me…Some people think that they can’t go to God because their sin is to great or that God has abandoned them because what they did was unforgivable. there is
absolutely nothing you can do on this earth that would make
God love you any less and there is nothing you can do that would make you unfit to go to the Lord when you are troubled. He loves you more then you can ever realize for His very being is the perfect representation of love. So if you are broken hearted or down spirited then go ahead talk to Jesus He is there to listen to your cries to help you, He loves you :)Let us repent to God he will forgive Us …
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Yolanda Ngubane
I was 16 when I had my first abortion. I had just finished high school and took a gap year back in 2016. Early that year I found out I was pregnant and got very scared to tell anyone. only told my boyfriend and he was excited about it. I was very scared and didn’t know how to tell my mother. I then took a decision on my own and got a referral letter from my local clinic to book at an abortion clinic. I went and did the surgical termination alone. Few weeks after I told my boyfriend that I had a miscarriage and he believed me. He was so hurt and I felt so guilty and manipulative. I really thought I made the right decision at that time and felt okay about it.
2018 I felt pregnant and decided to keep the baby. My baby girl is turning 5 this year.
Parenting is not an easy process so when I found out
I’m pregnant again in January I cried and panicked. I told my baby daddy and he wasn’t so happy and looked stressed.
I am 24 years and doing my second year at university. At first I was happy that I was pregnant but was worried about my studies and telling my mother because I still live with her. without thinking straight, Ithen bought the pills at 8 weeks and aborted my poor little baby boy. Well judging from the things I craved it was definitely a boy.
It’s been 3 weeks since it happened and I extremely regret it and can’t stop thinking of what I should’ve done right. I cry myself to sleep every night and have sleepless nights. This makes me realize that Abortion is not the only option sometimes seeking advice front even a stranger may help you make the right choice.
Aa
If you are pregnant and scared, there are options. Abortion is NOT the answer. Please please please do not do it. I plead with you. You will regret it. It is NOT an ‘easy’ fix. Do not believe the lies. I wish I could go back and get my baby back. My partner wasn’t ready and I was scared and a coward. I got swept away because he wasn’t ready and I blame myself for not being stronger. I wasn’t that far along. I miss my baby every day. The grief I feel is overwhelming. I wish I was stronger. I am now seeking therapy because I cannot handle the reality of our horrible decision. I want to die every day. I plead with God to take me away from this nightmare so that I can be with my baby. I just want to be with my baby. My partner and I are not doing well. I would have been better off with the reality that he wasn’t ready then living in this reality. Because this is a nightmare. She came to me in a dream. She is so beautiful and I will never be able to cuddle her. I intended on burying my feelings but I can’t figure out a way to live so I reached out for help. I don’t see a reason for living. I have lost my will to live. I wish I was stronger and better. PLEASE PLEASE don’t do it. I beg you. I implore you. It’s not worth it. I am 100000% pro-life. This reality is a nightmare. Don’t do this to yourself. My biggest worry is that I won’t be able to have children now. I wish I could go back. Please please please don’t do it. Please.