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I will Never be the Same

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Hi, my name is Aubrey. I was 15 when I found out I was pregnant. I turned 16 in October, i waited until november to go to planned parenthood and get tested. I got pregnant in september of 2011. I told my boyfriend that I was suspecting I was pregnant because I had spotting a week before my period was due and that was not normal. After I missed my period I waited 2 weeks to take a pregnancy test. I took it and sure enough I was pregnant. I waited a month to tell my parents because I had to come to grips with the situation I was in. I found out November 21 2011 I was pregnant. I told my parents December 11. That Friday they pressured me to have an abortion. I had from Monday December 12 until that Friday morning December 16 to try and handle what I was going to be put through.

 

Everytime I told my boyfriend I wanted to tell my parents he kept telling me to hold off for a little longer so he could tell his dad. Well after a week or 2 of pushing that back I couldnt keep it from my parents anymore. I told my mom on a sunday night by giving her the test result on paper from planned parenthood. That night I had to tell my dad when he got home from work and my mom called my boyfriends dad before he told him. They were so angry and they started telling me that I am not keeping this mistake and that they don’t want this grandchild because it wasn’t concieved out of love. My boyfriend and I have been together over a year now. My parents told me I had one option, abortion or get kicked out of the house and go to a shelter in the city.

 

I didnt want to have to move out, never see my boyfriend again and go to a new school and be pregnant. My boyfriends dad and step mom came over Monday night the night after I told my mom and they all told me I have to get an abortion or it’s going to wreck everyones life. My boyfriend supported me and my thought for adoption. But once his dad came to talk to me and my mom he changed his mind and told me I should get one. The next day my mom called the planned parenthood and made an appointment for that coming friday for me to have an abortion. I will never forget having to wake up at 5 am to get there for an 8 am appointment to do something I didn’t want to do but I felt like I ha no choice to do.My mom told me they would do an ultra sound and that I am not to look at it because she didn’t want me to know what was there. I didn’t want the abortion. It was my baby and I stopped fighting for it. I never should have done it. My boyfriend told me he didn’t see us together anymore if I would have continued the pregnancy. My boyfriend was there for the abortion in the waiting room because he wasn’t allowed in the recovery room with me. He held my hand after it was over and came home with me to comfort me.. After the whole thing was said and done all I could do was come home an cry. My dad was not speaking to me before the abortion but the day I got it when I got home he started talking to me and gave me a hug because they got what they wanted. I didn’t. And now I am living with something I didn’t want to do that everyone else pressured me into, for the rest of my life. I regret it and I want my baby back. I should have never listened to them. I had no support though. My family, even my brother didn’t support my adoption idea and neither did My boyfriends parents or my boyfriend! He backed out on me and stopped supporting me. I felt like the whole world was against me.But if your pregnant and people are pushing you to do abort the child, do what you want. Do what you feel is right for you. Think about your baby. I was 3 months pregnant. And knowing what a fetus looks like at 3 months old, it’s heartbreaking. Think about it before you do it. You will have to live with it the rest of your life. Nobody will ever understand what you will go through after it’s all done. Abortion doesn’t make a baby go away, it just makes a dead baby. Please do what you feel is right. Don’t be pressured like me and everyone else that has been pressured into it and has told their story. It’s a painful procedure and I can’t understand how it is legal to kill innocent human beings. I am suffering so many emotions of sadness, grief, loss, guilt, shame, and anger. I am not myself anymore. I will never be the same.

 

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Laura T June 6, 2020 - 3:19 am

Awwww beautiful woman I am so sorry for your heartbreak. We certainly live in a fallen world that is so selfish to not accept another life to love it they view it is the wrong circumstance in their eyes or too much of a burden – which we have fallen away from Jesus who said He will always make a way. I also will forever carry the heartbreak in my family and I would do anything to go back and save my sisters baby when she was a teen and I think of her baby every day – and it’s been over 20 years. The only think I cling to is that the baby is in heaven and never had to suffer in this cruel world. We now have a baby in our family and I am so heartbroken still about the little one our family couldn’t open their hearts to or to at least give a chance for some other family to love. I wish I could hold you and cry with you and I am so sorry our society does not love and respect women and children. I hate that Satans lies have convinced people that abortion is a positive for women. I am sorry you had no support and you were forced into abortion, just as my mom did to my sister and it happened so fast that I wish I could go back and ask my sister if that is what she wanted – which I now know she did want to have her baby. God knows your heart. He forgives. And I believe all our lost babies are with Him in heaven.

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Anonymous November 10, 2020 - 2:15 am

You’re not alone. I regret mine, too. I was 34 when I did it at 6 weeks and 6 days. My baby would have just turned 10. I have two boys now ages 4 and 5. I try to reason that if I hadn’t made the choice I did they wouldn’t be here but it doesn’t lessen the pain.

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Naomi November 30, 2020 - 5:27 am

To my now dead child , and god I’m sorry . If I could go back I’d listen to me. It didn’t bother me at first but as I start my period again the grief comes along as well. I’m so sorry.

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Ellen December 4, 2020 - 5:18 pm

You are such a brave young lady to post this incredible personal story. I have no doubt that you will one day be an amazing mother to your other children. If there were more people with your intelligence and courage in the world, people would realize the gravity of killing sweet innocent babies. Thank you for your bravery. I hope you have forgiven yourself because God has. You are a beautiful soul. God bless you sweetie!

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Patricia cardenas January 18, 2021 - 10:33 am

Oh wow , this is so sad I got an abortion too because I was selfish and didn’t really care I mean I look back now and I was able to move on with my life knowing I didn’t make a mistake but just the thought that I ended a life before it got to grow any further I feel I am such a bad person

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Anonymous January 21, 2021 - 8:36 pm

That is so so sad . I’m soo sorry that you felt so pressured from your parents to kill your baby. Yes abortion is murder! They lie to a young woman for money in thier pockets. Just know that you will see your baby someday in heaven and that God will help you find peace again. Your baby had a soul and is at peace thank you for revealing the truth of the horror of abortion. It is permanent once you do it you cant undo it. Please if you are someone considering this seek help! There are caring people who can help you and your little baby!

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Anonymous January 24, 2021 - 11:10 am

So sad

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Rita January 30, 2021 - 6:12 pm

I know acactly how you feel Its been 28 years and I still feel like I murdered my precious baby I was 3 months also I can only hope God can forgive me and my precious baby Im so sorry you have to experience this pain also God bless you

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Anonymous January 30, 2021 - 8:26 pm

I had one when I was.19 and married. I already had a baby she was 9 months old. I was on the pill but I took antibiotics and the pill was null and void. No one told me that antibiotics would cause birth control pills to be ineffective. Anyway my husband at the time was in and out of jail and prison. He was wild as the wind. I decided it was best and I just couldn’t take on another baby. Now I’m 55 and I think about that baby every single day. I have ask God for forgiveness and I have never ever did anything like that again. I educate as much as I can. I’m a nurse also and I care for sick kids that families have given up for adoption because they couldn’t deal with it. I have a child that I care for that has spina bifida and cerebral palsy she is also paralyzed. They wanted the mother to abort her when she was 6.5 months pregnant. I asked the mother not to and I asked her to let me have her if she couldn’t deal with it. She brought her to me 3 months after she came home from the hospital. The child is 13 according to the doctors she wasn’t supposed to live past 6 months. I don’t know but maybe it was God giving me a second chance. Anyway this is my story. Please do not have an abortion you will NEVER EVER forget.

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Gina Paparella January 31, 2021 - 8:59 am

I am so sorry that happened to you. I can’t imagine what you went through. It was not right. But Jesus loves you. Seek him pray to him. If I were you I would contact a pro-life center that offers post abortion counseling. These centers are not judgemental. They offer healing. God Bless!

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Charlene February 5, 2021 - 6:47 am

I too was in a similar situation. I went in believing at the time that I must be doing the right thing. I remember l laying on the table with my mind racing, imagining myself jumping up and running out the door. Yes, no, yes, no was constantly going through my mind about doing this. I remember the sound of the machine and the worst pain in five minutes I ever felt. Then going home and still feeling pregnant. Swollen breast had not gone down yet. Did it not work, I wondered and did I dare hope? Its been a lot of years and its something you never forget and the regret is with you the rest of your life. I’m so sorry for girls like the one in this article. Really I am because I lived it. No one can really understand until they’ve been there

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Luana February 7, 2021 - 7:23 pm

I need help dealing with my abortion its been 10 yrs and it still hurts

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Anonymous February 7, 2021 - 7:26 pm

I made a terrible mistake and I will never forgive myself. I killed an innocent child. My child. I wish I was educated and I wish someone would have offered their support. I wish to God I would have looked at that sonogram and then jumped off the table and ran out as fast as I could. It’s been 20 years and the shame and guilt and heartache only gets worse. I’m so sorry sweet baby

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Anonymous February 7, 2021 - 11:05 pm

This is horrible, I’m 45. I too was forced into one at 17. It never goes away.

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Kimberley February 14, 2021 - 11:10 am

Somebody help me heal . It’s been almost 18 years , it’s ruined my marriage, my relationship with my kids . I want my life back . How do I ever forgive myself?

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Anonymous February 14, 2021 - 12:20 pm

God is there for you.He forgives.He knows your heart and if you are truly repentant he will forgive you.No one is perfect.praying for you

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Anonymous February 16, 2021 - 10:29 am

How very sad. It’s true that the mothers are also victims of this horrific and barbaric practice we call “health care,” particularly when one so young as you are searching for help to address the issue toward an outcome that doesn’t need to involve abortion. Hugs and prayers for you, little lady. Seek God. He will heal your heart.

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Sandy February 16, 2021 - 2:42 pm

I had an abortion in the early 1970s.. unfortunately I did not have sexual health classes in catholic school, I know most people won’t believe this, but I was so naive that I thought my pregnancy at 10 weeks,, baby was just a “dot” I know it sounds absurd, but I really believed that… when the abortion was over, the ‘doctor” left the container by the side where I could see it,, I was freaked out..it wasn’t a “dot” why didn’t planned parenthood explained more to me? God I’ve been in heel for 40 years

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Kathy February 18, 2021 - 5:04 pm

I know your pain. I had 3 abortions. My heart was heart was set on wanting so badly to believe that it was a good decision for me each time. After my third, my heart was shattered into a million pieces. My world went dark. It was hard to get up and out of bed each day. It was hard to breathe because my heart was so heavy and broken….
Through some very improbable steps, ones that I wouldn’t have known to take on my own, I was led to a post-abortion bible study. I understand now that it was the Lord’s loving hand that walked me there. Through it I found freedom from the shame, the guilt, the self-hatred and the self-condemnation. God had shone the light of His love into my broken heart. With each week of the study He put my heart back together piece by piece.
This was 20 years ago, and my heart is still whole and my soul is still free.
You are not alone, this is not an unforgivable sin, you are worthy of God’s love.
You can find a post abortion bible study at most, if not all, community pregnancy centers.

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Sue February 19, 2021 - 6:56 pm

I had 2 babies by the time I was 16 I raised them both with an abusive husband. My mother told me I couldn’t keep the baby at home that I had to get married to keep the baby. After 18 years and a divorce I started to date again he was younger than me but after 2 years we became engaged. I got pregnant and he said to me if you keep it I will make your life a living he’ll and fight you by denying it is mine. In the meantime he was cheating on me and got another woman older than me pregnant which I didn’t know till later. I was alone and knew I just couldn’t go through with raising a baby all over again. So I made the horrible choice to abort I cried for months asking God to forgive me. That was 20 years ago and I still carry the guilt. I say oh in March he or she would be 21. But isn’t the man just as guilty I mean he got 2 women pregnant and didn’t want either one??

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Lisa February 20, 2021 - 5:05 pm

I had an abortion over 30 years ago and it has bothered me since. I always wondered what the child would look like or become. My worst decision ever to not have the baby

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Anonymous March 1, 2021 - 7:19 am

I am sorry you had to go through that and your parents was so unkind to you children should not have to go through this . your parents are selfish and only thinking of them self.

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Anonymous March 2, 2021 - 12:10 pm

I truly understand your pain and I carry my pain everyday. I got pregnant unexpectedly and my boyfriend was at the appointment with me when we found out I was pregnant. We agreed to have the baby and then a day or so later my boyfriend called and told me having the baby would be hard financially. I never wanted to have an abortion or had even thought of possibly having one. I didn’t want my baby to grow up in a toxic environment or I feel I allowed my boyfriend fear of having it get the best of me. I went on to have the abortion and it was the worse decision of my life. It’s been almost 3 years ago and I’m still dealing with the trauma from it. The emotions of guilt, sadness , depression, ashamed,etc. I should have done what I wanted to do which was not have the abortion at all. The procedure was painful and a horrible experience. Please anyone reading this don’t have an abortion if you truly don’t have to. All I want to do is hold my baby because I killed my baby.

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Anonymous March 4, 2021 - 8:49 pm

Jesus loves you your babies in heaven this is the truth your parents cant over rule jesus ask for forgiveness of everything be led through the sinners prayer follow jesus forever 1 day or night you will see your babies and raise him or her in heaven forgive your parents your boyfriend forgive yourself after you get right with jesus and enjoy knowing you are forgiven by jesus brother in christ I love you

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Jane March 9, 2021 - 10:26 pm

I too feel your sadness. Many women do. I drank the first pill and couldn’t come to terms with it as I was there. I was pressured by my boyfriend of almost a year and a half. I have already 3 children and while it seems like a lot, I also didn’t mind having another one if that’s what god wanted for me. I feel interrupted that process and feel I’ll be punished for it. I feel empty inside. I contacted a hotline to reverse it and said it’s only 68 percent effective, but I’m going to try. Although it may feel worse then because if it doesn’t work, I’ll feel like a failure. But I regretted it the moment I put that pill in my mouth. I wish I would have had more support and I didn’t. I’m not sure why I needed support or validation at 35, but i was trying to also be realistic with my situation. A single mom of 3 and potentially of 4 in a state where I know no one would make my life difficult but at the same time this is what I did and a life shouldn’t pay for our choices that we did not measure the consequences of.
I felt for you reading your story, but I hope you can overcome this and know next time, you won’t ever consider it not even for one second regardless of who’s supporting you. I know that if this happens to me again I won’t ever consider it because this empty feeling I have feels almost unbearable. I’ve broken down twice already almost as if in a panic because of this. I can’t come to terms with it. There are women that are okay with it and I wish I had that strength. I wish I would have encountered this article prior to this. I tried to find some online but all I found was people who did it and were glad they did it. Now I encounter this and wish I would have read it to avoid this feeling. Although I felt so pressured that I may have done it regardless and live in regret. That’s usually the lesson in life. Don’t do anything you don’t feel comfortable doing. The moment of regret will always set in. Now I’m here hoping this reversal works.

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Nickole March 11, 2021 - 4:09 pm

It’s honestly the worst thing I have ever done. I was pressured too. I was in a tight spot but I would have made it work. As of January my baby would have been 4 years old. It still kills me to this day. I think of the what ifs and what could have beens. I get told to get over it but that’s something I don’t think I could ever do. I told god the morning of the abortion to please forgive me and watch over my baby. I rubbed my stomach and told my baby I was so sorry and I loved him(I believe it was going to be a boy cause he gave me hell) I was 3 months and I wish I could take it all back. I am a parent….I’m just a parent of an angel baby….I don’t understand how people were okay with it. How people who were far more into there pregnancy were smiling or acting like it was fine in that waiting room. How can you be okay with killing a child, a human being…. I regret it each and every day.

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D March 11, 2021 - 7:30 pm

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. My ex boyfriend also pressured me to have an abortion. I have tried to commit suicide because of it, ive ended up homeless and given up on my life because of it, and yeah. It is a horrific thing. But I have come to realize that it isnt my fault or your fault that no one listened, helped or cared. Your man shouldve stepped up. It is actually his fault. Abortion is murder and is a horrible thing. I will pray for you that you find a GOOD MAN who can take care of you so you can have another baby. Or that your baby’s soul can come back from Heaven. I do believe in miracles. Jesus saved me from my abortion pain. Just remember, Jesus Christ came back from the DEAD. so ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. GOD BLESS YOU AND IM SORRY YOU WERE WITH A MAN WHO WAS NOT THERE FOR YOU. YOU DESERVE A LOT MORE THAN THIS AND I PRAY THAT YOU WILL RECEIVE IT. AND YOU WILL! you are now in my heart forever ! A MIRACLE IS COMING !

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Anonymous March 25, 2021 - 8:22 pm

Thank you..I never really excepted it myself but had no time to think about what I wanted and I was so sick all the time..I was 15 and scared and now I’m 30 with a 8 year old and I regret not sticking up for my baby when no one else wanted it.i always wanted my baby…To my baby I hope you forgive me and I have always loved you..not one day I haven’t thought about you

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Cristal March 29, 2021 - 10:12 am

I am so sorry for the heartache you have to live with. I also had an abortion at the age of 17 because I was pressured into it. My boyfriend of 2 years at the time said he was too young to be a father and a baby would ruin his life, so I went through with it. I cried for days afterwards,
and he left me 4 months later. To this day I still live with the pain and regret, I cry whenI think about the baby. I now have 4 beautiful children and a husband of 17 years, but it is a pain that never goes away. I wonder what he or she would look like, or how different my life would be. I will keep you in my prayers, that God will give you comfort and help you try and forgive yourself. I am still trying myself. God bless you

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Mamu March 30, 2021 - 11:27 pm

Thanks you really helped me , I did aborted 15 ag for stupid reasons, got my life together got married for 5 but not a kid I fog pregnant 3times and it goes to miscarriage,
As I am dying inside to have a bby and dealing with the gilts of my past I started thinking maybe God is punishing me for what I did On the other hand I also have a cheating husband that I just got rid of one month ago and I found out am pregnant my brain and anger of being cheated to was busy telling me just abort it and move on with your life ,
Until when I read your testimony,
I am keeping my bby to hell the marriage and the husband my bby is everything!
Thanks so much for your testimony

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Larry April 4, 2021 - 8:30 am

My daughter became pregnant at 15, unlike your father I didn’t threaten to kick her out. I was not happy but now that little boy is 15 and my best friend, abortion is never an option for me and I’m sorry you mother and father forgot their duty to love you unconditionally, God makes no mistakes, your child no doubt had a place in this world, but take solace in knowing he/she doesn’t have to grow up in these horrible times

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Adrienne April 4, 2021 - 8:00 pm

I too had an abortion 49 years ago. It occurred months after Roe v Wade became legal in my state. I was 18, and just started college. Planned Parenthood really pushed abortions on young college women at that time. I decided to abort at 6 weeks because I felt that I couldn’t put my father through the shame of getting pregnant in my first semester of school, since I was the first in my family for several generations who went to college. Years later I was able to make the connection that my deep depression and sense of shame that followed me for many years was a result of the abortion. I’ve learned that God is forgiving and merciful, however, aborting my child is something that still make me ashamed to talk about.

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Thomas April 5, 2021 - 6:56 pm

I pressured my girlfriend in 1977 to get an abortion. I married the woman 3 years later and we have been together 40 years one big deep down problem, that I kept buried for years was the guilt from being responsible for talking my innocent future wife into killing our child. God has forgiven me but I can’t forgive me.i’m told I will meet this child someday and that prospect shatters me. Anybody out there reads this that is contemplating abortion, don’t do it! Have the child and put it up for adoption, don’t kill it, if you have any kind of consciousness it will eat you alive later in life, don’t do it.

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Aznasimage April 8, 2021 - 1:12 pm

I love you.

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V Mighells April 10, 2021 - 4:00 pm

Hey anonymous, I know how you feel Sweetheart. Me too, but I was 16 and my sister guilted me into it. I’m 55 now. I have a son who is 28. It killed me inside to tell him, he would’ve had an older sibling. There should never have been the Abortion “option” to begin with. Time heals but this will always stay with you. You must go to Jesus and ask forgiveness and for help in forgiving yourself. My heart is right there with you honey. Try not to beat yourself into the ground. It doesn’t work, I’ve tried it. Take the lesson and take control of your choices. I’m sorry your parents weren’t there for you. This I do know, Jesus does Exist and there is healing and forgiveness. He has “All” if those babies in his arms. Remember, what you have been through can help someone else who may struggle with this same problem. Use it to encourage a good outcome. God Bless you in your future with Peace and lots of Babies to Love. You are going to be alright. V

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Gena April 10, 2021 - 5:23 pm

Sweet girl, you are not alone. I am so sorry you went through this. I was 17 when my mom coerced me to have an abortion. I am now 51 and still cry and regret this decision everyday. I pray my baby forgives me. Love and acceptance to you xo

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ariana April 16, 2021 - 6:14 pm

i’m a month pregnant and i’ve thought about abortion for the past couple of weeks because i’m 16. my boyfriends mom has made it very clear that she wants me to have an abortion and my boyfriend remains neutral about the situation my parents are upset and they say i have their support but i don’t even know if i want it all there is; is anger between me and my dad and how is it fair to my mom to take care of my baby while i have to go out and get an education i feel very conflicted and confused i can make all of the fighting and pain for others go away. but i love my baby and i don’t know if i could live with myself if i stopped my baby’s heart.

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Cynthia April 18, 2021 - 11:52 am

I had an abortion 27years ago. I was doing drugs and in a abusive relationship. I tried to kill myself later that year. I was so hopeless. I still cry when I think about what I have done. I murdered my child. I got pregnant again while on birth control and of course the man and his family wanted me to get an abortion but I got locked up and stayed in jail past the time to get one. Praise God. I know it was God who put me there. I had a son who is the love of my life. I know I’m forgiven by the grace of Jesus and I have to repent to remove my shame because the devil is cruel. One day I will get to see my son or my daughter and get to tell them how sorry I am and how much in love them. But until then, I live with that day but also I stand on every pro-life issue so no one has to go through that. They don’t tell you how much you will miss that child and the emptiness it brings in your life.

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Darla April 21, 2021 - 11:46 am

I am 57 now. I had a abortion when i was 25. I had 2 children already. My husband now my boyfriend then did not want the abortion. I did not either, but my mom was helping me and she would of had a fit. I Prayed and Prayed for JESUS CHRIST TO FORGIVE. ME HE HAD. I HAD TO FORGIVE MYSELF. WITH HIS GRACE I DID. I would not recommend a abortion for anyone. Also after wards i about bled to death went into shock. It was horrible.

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Anonymous April 27, 2021 - 2:07 pm

Thank God I went for adoption instead..I couldn’t have lived with myself if I had an abortion. The great news is that we were reunited after 50 years and it was instant love.

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Koriee May 5, 2021 - 8:38 pm

My boyfriend of 3 years is trying to force me into a second abortion because “he’s not ready”. It’s always HIM and never about ME and how I feel. After my second abortion I screamed, cried & pleaded for forgiveness. Now I’m pregnant again and I refuse to get one. But I know if I get an abortion it will only keep leading to another abortion and another abortion because “he’s not ready”. I also understand if I keep this baby we won’t be together and I’m fine with that.

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Theresa May 6, 2021 - 8:31 am

I pray for your healing and for mine. Good bless you. Thank you for writing your story.

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Samantha May 10, 2021 - 10:44 pm

Your baby is NOT dead, just in a place of peace and absolute PURE LOVE. Death does not exist. Don’t worry or beat yourself up over this anymore. There is no need for anger or remorse or guilt. You will be reunited someday.

For now, honor your unborn child by having a good and joyful and productive life. Show compassion and love to others. That soul will come back to you if it is meant to be so. Go in peace and absolute love because that is what your child and the Divine Source of All want for you.

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B. Lokey May 21, 2021 - 10:05 am

It is amazing that humanity has stooped so low into the very sewage beneath gutters that a girl’s mother and father could be do abominable as to cheer the murder/butchery of their own grandchildren. Humanity is on the way OUT of life on the way to HELL.

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Darla May 21, 2021 - 1:49 pm

There is a place for abortion healing. It’s called Rachel’s Vinyard.Please check it out for post abortion healing.God bless.+++

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Anonymous May 31, 2021 - 6:44 pm

I am so sorry you went through that, I also went through that last month. My then boyfriend told me he can’t be with me if I continue with the pregnancy. I didn’t have a choice because I’m in a foreign country with no family he was my only support and he took advantage of that. I was so broken and even lost myself, I had to fight to get my personality back and be happy again. I decided to cut him off my life for good.

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By His stripes I am healed June 2, 2021 - 10:09 am

I was 15 too. Trapped in an abusive relationship with a grown man. I wanted to get away from him and keep my baby. I had no support and no where to go. My sister told me it would be for the best. I told her I didn’t want to do it. I should have fought harder. I sobbed the entire way to planned parenthood. I was so upset I started bleeding heavily. When they took me back to the “ operating area” ( it was just a big room divided by curtains) I told the nurse I didn’t want to go through with it. She gave me something to calm me down, and I continued crying and trying to get off the table. I will never forget her face. She looked me in the eyes and and said “ you don’t want to do this do you?” I said no and she held my hand. The Dr came in. He said nothing and began the procedure. I am haunted not knowing if I was having a miscarriage or if my baby was still alive. I have regretted this EVER SINGLE DAY of my life! If you are thinking of abortion , PLEASE seek out adoption. There are so many people who would happily cover your living expenses etc for the chance to love your baby. There are options! Even if you are all alone, there are resources to help you. Do NOT believe the lies that mainstream media and PP want you to believe. They are evil and want to destroy God’s creation. I pray God forgives me and that someday I’ll see my baby in heaven. It’s been 26 years and I will never forget.

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Baljit June 8, 2021 - 1:47 am

I went to planned parenthood to confirm my pregnancy this was back in 2007. They told me i am pregnant but its in the fallopian tube abd it’s dangerous and to get an abortion i was so panicked and sad so i setup an appointment in Sutter health hospital.they also ran some test snd said the same,they gave me an injection after some time,i had the abortion.after some time they told me it was a normal pregnancy snd it was already too late i was already heartbroken and this left me in emotional distress and wreck!!

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Gege June 21, 2021 - 2:20 am

God bless you I’m sorry you had to endure that I feel your pain . Please stay strong

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