Don’t do it. I still think about it every day for the past 33 years. I have birthed 4 wonderful children. The first conceived only a few months after the abortion. Atonement or so I thought. It didn’t solve or cover up anything. But know that we have a Redeemer and merciful God who forgives everything. Although I don’t know if I will ever forgive myself, I am certain that Jesus has! I can tell you what I was believing at the time (from Satan, no doubt) but listen only to the voice of the spirit of god who loves you and you can rescue you from any situation and make it beautiful!!!