Forever Regretful – but also Hopeful. 

Although at the time I became pregnant (40 years ago) I could not see this at all, God was trying to bless me with that unwelcome pregnancy. Children are indeed a gift from the Lord, an inheritance meant to bless us. (Psalm 127:3-5).
Now looking back, I can clearly see how the entire trajectory of my life would have been so much more blessed if I had not terminated the pregnancy. The baby that I had been given would have turned my pain and anger from a lifetime full of rejection into a life more full of love and joy. Any hardship or judgment I would’ve endured would have been obscured by the love I would have experienced as a mother to that precious baby. All I accomplished with abortion was to drive myself deeper into the darkness that was my world. Thankfully, the Light of the Lord Jesus can overcome any darkness and His forgiveness restores all who seek it. But my life would have been much much better had I not chosen abortion and faced whatever hardships I might’ve endured. Because wherever God’s providence takes us, if we trust Him in it, provision will be made for us. Trust in the Lord with all your heart ladies, and lean not on your understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
And I’m so sorry to my child who I destroyed … so very very sorry 🙁