When I was 13, I ran away from an abusive home. I found myself pregnant . I was 8 weeks when I found out. My parents were furious. She dragged me from abortion clinic to abortion clinic. I fought them off me ,I screamed. I refused. At 16weeks they took me to Bellevue Womans Hospital in Albany Ny. They wheeled me in to the operating room and I begged them to stop. They all just looked at each other but continued. I woke up feeling devastated and alone. My mother told me I’m glad the mistake was taken care of. I carry this pain. It was June13,1986. I still long for my baby.