I was like 18 when I had my first abortion. I thought my mom would be mad that I was pregnant so I decided to end it. About a year later I found out I was pregnant again . My boyfriend didn’t seem to care. I was young and thought an abortion was a solution to my problem. “Problem, Solution.” A few months passed and I was PREGNANT AGAIN. At this point I was afraid but still felt that being pregnant wasn’t something I could do . Maybe because I was scared I wasn’t married while fornicating and I thought my mom would be so upset. The fourth time I don’t know what I was thinking. I am now so afraid and sad. I am in total grief and regret it so much because I’m afraid I won’t be able to conceive or carry a pregnancy. They were all surgical . If anyone else went through this and have conceived and now have a baby let me know. I want to be a mother and when I am ready to I just want to feel like everything will be okay and that I will be able to carry my pregnancy.