I Wish I Knew what I Know Now…

I was 17 wen i noticed i am pregnant, my bF was far older dan me & i guess he took advantage of my inexperience & his money to deceived me, i am d worst sinner on earth, i am a murderer & a big one for dat matter, i have done several abortions of which i hav lost count on, i hav lost faith in myself, i neva knew life is lik dis, i wish i knew wat i know now before maybe my life wnt hav been lik dis, friends pls help me & pray to God to forgive me & hav mercy on my soul.