While many of the stories out there may be young women struggling, there are also those who are already mothers who have made this choice. Here is my story. I am a mom to two beautiful children. My husband and I longed for a third. It never happened. The chapter we thought was closed. I ended up taking a pregnancy test on a gut feeling and it was positive. My husband at the time was in the hospital with his own health issues and my world was crashing around me. Feeling overwhelmed, my gut reaction was I cannot do this. I unfortunately made the decision to terminate. No one talked me out of it. When I entered the center they immediately gave me a Valium to “calm my nerves.” Looking back I was essentially drugged. I was not counseled. When I was in the room for the procedure they had the monitor turned away and wouldn’t let me see. It was over before I had a chance to process what was happening. I wake up every morning thinking of the baby I lost. I am reminded as I look into my living children’s eyes every day. How could I make this choice? My husband and I have been trying since unsuccessfully to conceive and it’s all that I can think; that I blew my opportunity to have my family complete. May I find forgiveness in myself. May I find peace. May I be blessed again, because I have been so awakened by this experience I was to scream from the rooftops. Please, do not make the choice I did. Signed, A mother
Mom Living with Regret
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I am so sorry for this pain in your heart… I cannot even imagine.
I do know my God though, and I know the forgiveness and freedom I have found in Him. He doesn’t love like humans love, conditionally and with demands, His love is beyond our understanding.
I hope you’ll read some of these other stories of women such as yourself who are grieving the loss of a child for one reason or another and see how many of them have found forgiveness, hope, life, love in the Savior of the world, Jesus Christ.
God offers you a new life, a chance to be born into His family no matter what you’ve done in your life.
John 3:1-7,16-17
There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews: The same came to Jesus by night, and said unto him, Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him. Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother’s womb, and be born? Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
He loves YOU, Mama. He saw every wrong you’d ever do and He still chose to die on the cross to pay the penalty for every sin, last present, and future.
Romans 5:6-8
For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
He offers you this gift to one day live eternally with Him and your third child.
Romans 6:23
For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
If you believe in what God did for you, it’s as simple as asking Him for this gift of salvation.
Romans 10:9,13
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
I’m praying for you… I’m praying that you’ll find this wonderful forgiveness and peace and comfort. I’m also praying that the Lord will show you His great love by gifting you with another child.