Im 24 years old and have had 2 secret abortions. My first one was back in 2016 and my second one is very recent, a month ago. I still ask myself why I did it, I was just selfish and didn’t give myself time to think it through as no one forced me to do it.My heart is heavy. I find myself crying every night , worse I’ve had dreams holding a sweet little girl and a cute baby boy and they look pretty much alike and I know it’s them . wishing I could turn back the time and make the right choice. I wish to hold my kids and tell them how sorry I am. I want them back so badly that I even I want to try get pregnant again like now. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself unless I get pregnant again .