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I just wrote and submitted my testimonial, but immediately realized I submitted it too soon. There is something else— and I feel it is SO hugely important, that I Pray it too will be posted. Aside from the lifelong paralyzing pain, guilt, shame, sorrow, graphic nightmares, and fear of going to Hell for MURDERING my own child😭😭😭, there is THIS😭: I never again in my life was able to become pregnant😭 A little girl who all she ever wanted was to be a MOM😭— that little girl is now a CHILDLESS WOMAN😭😭 ME.😭😭 I view it as God punishing me for what I did😭😭 God feeling He gave me this gift once before— He saw what I did with that precious gift😭😭— he’s not going to take that chance again😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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Have you contacted Rachel’s Vineyard aka Project Rachel? It is a healing ministry for post abortion women, men and former abortionists to receive the mercy and forgiveness that can only be found thru our Lord Jesus Christ. As He was dying on the cross, the man on the cross next to Him was a murderer who admitted his sin and asked the Lord to “Remember me, when you come into your kingdom.” What was Jesus’ response? Compassion, forgiveness, love and Jesus told him, “Today, you will be with me in Paradise.” Not in hell. The Lord paid the price for your sin and mine on the cross. I’m sure you have asked God’s forgiveness a thousand times or more. But you can only receive absolution thru the Sacrament of Reconciliation. I highly recommend that you find a holy and reputable Catholic, Orthodox, or Missouri Synod Lutheran priest to meet with and receive God’s healing forgiveness and hear the words of Christ thru the priest when you are absolved of your sins. Then please go on the weekend Rachel’s Vineyard retreat to name your baby, who you will meet someday in paradise. God bless you and your baby.
I feel for you because you not only lost your baby because you simply didn’t think it through and were pressured at a young age, but now can’t have another one. God knows we make mistakes in judgments and deeds every day and Jesus died because he loves us and KNOWS our human frailty. There’s a movie (Pay it Forward) that has had a great impact and I try every day to live the “pay it forward” principle. Turning your grief into energy with God’s help, can be the propellant to make a difference in other young girls/women’s lives by sharing and being part of their lives as they struggle with small children. You, my dear, have a gift of conscience and righteousness recognized – you can make a difference in your circle of influence and become part of God’s family of believers. There are lot of girls who need your help desperately. Your healing will start there. PS: I talk to Jesus daily – DIRECTLY – but the fellowship of believers can be a good support system to help you up and wipe your tears. Seek them out. And whether you know it or not, you are loved. Take a deep breath, close your eyes, hug yourself, thank God for giving you a renewed purpose in life and then pursue it with all you’ve got. You can be the one who makes a difference for good. Jesus was one person and look at the difference he made on earth. You are one person too.
Chiming in – I believe repentance, deliverance and healing could help in the restoration of your womb. I believe we (and you) can approach the throne of grace boldly because of the blood of Jesus Christ and you can live free from guilt and shame. Jesus’ blood covers every terrible decision and sin we’ve committed (even abortion). We see this in the Bible – God used Moses (a murderer) to deliver His people and Paul (accessory to murder) to evangelize and expand the church. Not trying to preach to you but hope this provides hope. The Lord will allow consequences. He’ll allow us to feel the grief and pain of our decisions but we don’t have to stay there. I would encourage you to fast, pray, seek the Lord and seek Holy Spirit filled community to help you walk this out. There’s a woman named Tiphani Montgomery on YouTube (she had multiple abortions and shares how the Lord restored her and she has 2 children now) who I think can help walk you through the spiritual side of this and what’s happening/what needs to be renounced and cut off. It sounds wild but there is a spiritual aspect to abortions that effects the natural body. I hope this helps. The Father loves you. He loves you more than you can comprehend. Yes, He was sad about the abortion BUT He still loves you and is always waiting for us to come to Him no matter how battered or broken we are. ❤️