An adult, wife and mom of 1

I always hoped I’d be blessed with a big family. Unfortunately after only 1 my husband filed for a divorce,:six months later returning and I conceived immediately. He said he would never recognize that 2nd child if I chose to keep it, and he would definitely complete the divorce. I did succumb, crying the whole way , believing it was my only hope for my 1 daughter 12 mo nths old and our marriage. That was it; he never came back again. Divorce went through. 46 years later I still see the pain from this.