I am so sad. Profoundly sad. Every day I hurt. I want my baby back so badly. Thank you so much for this space to be allowed to express my sorrow. My baby would be nine. A lot of people around me tell me I’m stuck in a loop. I don’t talk much about my sadness. Because the judgment hurts too much. I can’t forgive myself. I wish I had been stronger and stood up for myself and my baby. I hurt so much and it has the loss has not lessened over the years!