I was 18 years old. Was in a great relationship but ended up getting sexually assaulted. My life changed after that. Already not having real family or support… everything went downhill just for me to discover I was 22 weeks pregnant.. having no idea up until that point. Me not knowing if my baby was from the person who hurt me or the one who loved me. This broke me. Being so young and having dealt with so much trauma in my life I was scared. My boyfriend pushed for me to get the abortion even though deep down I did not want it. I had a week after finding out to make a decision. I didn’t want to hurt the people around me or make their lives harder. But it was a baby’s life.. No matter who he was from he was still mine. I got the abortion at 22 weeks 6 days and believe me it was not easy. I was alone. I donated the remains to science knowing if my family found out they would had cut me off. I kept the ultrasounds and footprints. My boyfriend left me immediately after. Losing a baby is one of the hardest things and having to chose wether you bring a life into this world or let it go. I was traumatized. No one ever deserves that to happen to them. I still think about it everyday. I am 19 now. It may never fade but you will get through it. Know your not alone. Mourn all you need.
Gone, but never forgotten.
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I’m so sorry you were so unsupported. Scared and having no one to turn to. I recommend you finding a Rachel’s Vineyard in your area, it’s a organization to help women deal with post abortive feeling, whether now or later on, they will rise to the surface. It’s best to be around others going through the same thing . I’m a Catholic, people act like Catholics are prudes. We just follow Jesus teachings, And I and Jesus know how abortions hurt women one way or another. But even after abortion, Jesus and the church are here to show to show you love and forgiveness. We all make mistakes, when Jesus was here on Earth, he did hang with the movers and shakers of his time, No . it was the poor, sick and sinners he surrounded himself with. Showing them that although life didn’t seem fair. That through him, they would know they were loved and would know that there suffering was just a moment in time versus eternity in Heaven with him, also know your child us in Heaven in Jesus and you will see them if you work to get there. Go to a Catholic Church, it’s THE ONLY CHURCH STARTED BY JESUS. All the rest were started my men 1500 yrs later. God bless you