It is extremely painful to admit I have had 3 abortions. Each time I found out I was pregnant I wanted that child but the fathers wanted no part of it. I was left alone in each situation and worried how I could continue the pregnancies and have these children on my own. In each situation I realized I couldn’t, thus had abortion. Its been about 35 yrs now and not a day goes by I don’t regret those decisions. Sometimes the thoughts of my actions have nearly driven me to suicide. I live with guilt and shame. I believe in God and pray every day for his forgiveness. If there is anything I can say to stop someone from having an abortion, I would say please find a way to have the child because it is a terrible thing to have to live with. I still can’t fully forgive myself but I hold onto my faith in Jesus because I know he still loves me and is beside me.
I still can’t fully forgive myself