If you feel like you want it keep it 

I don’t even know how to start this bc I still can’t believe it happened to me.I was 16 years old I would have never even imagined me seeing a positive pregnancy test but there I was looking at two pink lines that popped right up I was so scared my first thought was I need an abortion I didn’t want my parents to find out so my boyfriends step mom I told and she tried to get me one right away she was so nice about the whole thing and didn’t judge me I was scared what if my mom found out his step mom couldn’t get me one so at this point I’ve known for a month and my parents still didn’t know I told myself I was gonna keep it bc I felt like I could do it and I ended up telling my mom I thought I was pregnant I lied and said my period was late knowing I hadn’t had one in a month and a half she got me a test and of course it came back positive fast and I told her she was so upset and she cried and told me my childhood was over the next day she mad my dad come over and she made me tell him all I could do was cry I felt like they were so disappointed how could this happen to me and then my mom brought up me getting an abortion I knew since she brought it up that’s what they wanted me to do I was so sad because I wanted to keep it and I became attached already but I knew I had to so I made my appointment my dad came with me and they made me go in the back by myself so they could talk to me alone she asked me if this was what I wanted I said yes know I didn’t she did the ultrasound and there it was she told me I was 8 weeks and if I was gonna do it I would have to do it in the next couple days they scheduled it two days after and I bleed so bad and the pain I went through hurt so bad and here I am 6 months later still hurting about it I feel like the pain will never go away and I have no one to talk to about this because I feel like no one will understand and lately I’ve just been feeling like the only thing that can help with the pain is if I got pregnant again