I share the exact experience as you. My mother forced me to have an abortion at 14 that I did not want to have. I know she meant well but she was more worried about what people would think than realizing that she wasn’t the best mother. I could never talk to her. I am 50 years old, happily married with 4 beautiful children that I love so much and in the back of my mind when I hear the word abortion, it all comes back. I’m in that cold recovery room vomiting and scared all over again. God is a forgiving God and he will forgive you as well as your parents. They don’t understand the pain.