I had my abortion on August 22, I was 7 months pregnant. I had to fly out of state to have the procedure performed. The moment they stuck that needle in my stomach to kill my child I regreted it. I came home and was sucidal for weeks. I still cry every day and look at the pictures they let me take of my dead baby. I live with the shame of everyone knowing what I did. I was having problems with the father and he wouldn’t let me stay with him when I had the baby. I thought we would have to go to the shelter, I was so scared and confused. I had scheduled 5 appointments before but could never go through with it. I hate myself I killed my son. It shouldn’t be legal to have a termination that late. They should have counseling and make sure you really want to go through with the procedure. I don’t know how I will go on with this pain and grief I feel. If I could take it back I would but I know I can’t. I miss him kicking me all day long. I wish I had kept him. He was so loved I just didn’t know.
Ray
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I had an abortion at 9 weeks that tore me to shreds emotionally and all I can really say is that I turned to God for forgiveness. It’s hard to explain… but I know he has forgiven me. I am almost 35 years old and have finally accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. God loves us so much that He sent His only Son here to die for our sins! I always believed in God but never turned to Him like I am now. I am now reading the Bible for the first time ever which has always been something I turned away from because I couldn’t understand the language in it, but I got the new living translation and it is actually really easy to read. God loves you and wants a relationship with you. As heart wrenching and this experience is, you can use it to turn to Him for healing and acceptance. I am 3 months post abortion and still think about my baby every day and regret it and wish I could take it back but I repented and confessed my sin to our Father in Heaven and he is healing me! I have a long way to go and some days are easier than others but I hope to be blessed with a baby again someday. Please know that there is hope and forgiveness in Jesus Christ.