I was 18 when I had an abortion. My parents were teen parents and the one thing my family pressed upon me was to not get pregnant. I had just found out about the pregnancy and was still struggling with the situation when I had to attend a family dinner…. for mother’s day. My family kept saying how proud they were of me for not getting pregnant. The father didn’t pressure me, but he made it known that he didn’t feel ready. We moved forward with an abortion. I’ve regretted it every moment since. I think of how old they would be and what milestones we’d be celebrating. The intensity of the pain grows as I realize I may not get the opportunity to become a mother. I haven’t been able to conceive since. I’m 39 and running out of time. I wonder if it’s punishment. It’s my biggest regret. Coming across this site is due to my very first steps to seek help and healing. I feel completely broken.