Afterlife/Astral Realm

I was much younger when I had my abortion. It was a crazy time where we didn’t have the Internet and all we had was the pressure of the people around us. I rationalized my decision based on trying to save the quality of life for the two that I already had and trying to save that babies life because it was going to be miserable on this earth. But After stuffing it deep down inside Because I wasn’t sure how to feel and I didn’t have any room for guilt I had two children to take care of still. So now, years later, I have come across some material in my research that shows when we commit abortion we are taking the next persons physical earthly life and body. They may have been waiting for that body for ever and we took it from them. It is my belief that we are we got reincarnated until we grow to a point that we can go into the heavens fully. But my research shows me that having done this I’m going to be stuck on the astral realm without any help waiting on a body to reincarnate to. Which means in essence I failed this life so I literally wasted the time that I am here due to this huge transgression… Do not let anyoneTry to tell you that it is anything less than murder. I wish to God it was never even available.