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When I was 23 years old 5 years ago I met this guy weeks of just knowing him I found out I was pregnant at the time of my life I was young lost confused and didn’t know what to do, I was scared my parents didn’t know only me and this guy. I had told him that I was pregnant we were both pretty young at the time which still doesn’t make what I did okay it’s not an excuse, once I told him the news he was very supportive as to what I wanted to do, whether it was to have the baby or no, he told it it was my decision and made it clear to me that it was my choice that he will be here regardless of my choice without judgment me thinking How can I have a baby with someone I barely know and it’s not my boyfriend just a guy I’m getting to know me being scared of what’s to come for me and this baby I didn’t want to bring him to this world to suffer I wasn’t mentally stable I felt I couldn’t be good enough of a mother for this baby so I made the worst decision I’ve ever made and that’s terminating my little angel life. I remember taking the first pill and immediately regretting it so I didn’t take the second one thinking it was going to save my baby if I didn’t which was very stupid of me, a week later pass I still didn’t take the pill and that’s when my worst fear happen. One night as I was sleeping I realize something was wrong I was bleeding a lot and I didn’t understand why which also quickly changed I was brought to the hospital because of the bleeding and told the nurses and doctor there that I was pregnant but had taken an abortion pill they brought me into the ultrasound room to check for a heartbeat and there wasn’t one my baby had already lost it’s heart beat with the first pill I took I was still carrying the baby inside of me and that’s why I was bleeding uncontrollably. At the hospital they gave me the second pill to take to finish the abortion it had to be done I already had started the process, throughout all of this my heart ached like it has never ached I felt like the worst human being ever I killed an innocent life that didn’t deserve to leave this world without experiencing first, I didn’t give my baby that was apart of me a chance to live and I will forever regret that until this day I still cry until this day even with another baby I still cry and imagine my first love face, until this day I still regret my decision I wish I can go back in time and tell myself it’s okay this is going to only bring you joy and happiness not the opposite babies are gods miracle, innocents life that should never be murder that’s what abortion is an act of murder and I killed my baby and for that I will never be able to be fully happy in life this pain is never going to go away, and I wish I got to hold you, to my baby in heaven, mommy loves you and mommy is so sorry I wish I I can take it all back and knowing that it’s not possible will forever hurt. You will always be a part of me until the day I’m not here anymore my sweet angel.

I went to a post abortion bible study to heal. I actually went to a 2nd one later and healed even more. To sit in a group of post- abortive women and hear their stories is extremely comforting. I now am a sidewalk counselor outside an abortion clinic. We pray for women who are driving to an abortion clinic and inform them there is help for any need they have. We need to get the word out that there are FREE Pregnancy Resource centers like Carenet of Puget Sound and many others. They offer free help with everything a pregnant woman needs to keep her baby, or if she chooses to adopt, they will refer her to adoption help. There are many ways God can use your experience to help women not make the same mistake we did. Look up “40 Days For Life” and “Sidewalk Advocate for Life”. God wants to use our experience to help others not make the same one. God is Faithful to forgive you ,if you confess this sin. The bible says “but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8 Call Carenet or another Pregnancy Help Center and get post- abortive help and counseling. Look up “Silent No More”, another site for post abortive women. Call 24/7 Helpline 877-668-2566 or visit https://carenetps.org/

I had high expectations for my future, as a sexual and mental abuse survivor I wasn’t ready. I wanted to get an education so I can provide for my children. Misguided on love and friendship, relationships, especially with men. Truth hurts when you realize relationships lasted just for sex, how about jealousy and envy placed upon you by ppl you thought love and cared for you. But now I realize none of it matters, if a male gets a female pregnant and leaves,she has to deal with it on her own, she and the baby will survive and they’re hearts will heal. #Abstinence

I am 64 years of age and had 3 abortions during 1982-83. I didn’t plan for my life to change abruptly after being diagnosed with fibroid tumors and advised to have emergency surgery to remove them and no guarantee or hysterectomy! I declined both options! In my mind, I needed to find out if I could get pregnant because I was advised by doctor it was a possibility that I could not. I decided to go on a mission to find out if I could or could not get pregnant. I was single, recent college graduate and just moved to a new city. I was shocked and naïve and Black. I had never heard of anyone having an abortion nor had their being discussion about it. I was blind-sided on every turn. But, once doctor gave me the options but no guarantee that he would not give me a hysterectomy, I did not sign papers for surgeries. I met a guy and had sex one time and after missing my monthly cycle found to be pregnant. I looked in the telephone directory and found an abortion clinic and made appointment. This was good news to know but I didn’t like the guy and didn’t tell him the news because I didn’t like him. I had my first abortion and I told no one. I felt alone and ashamed. But, it was so easy to have my abortion. My life’s plan was to be married before having a baby. Within a few months, I met another man, married and separated from his wife, at least, he said that he was…I sort of liked him, shortly thereafter, I missed my monthly cycle, pregnant and shared news with boyfriend. He left the decision to keep or abort baby with me, but, reminded me that he didn’t know if he and wife would work out their differences, but, offered to pay for procedure. I went alone to the same, cold and lifeless pregnancy center and had my second abortion. No other patients were there. I received no advice or counseling. If he had only told me that he wanted me and baby then I would have saved my baby. By the way, he and wife divorced…a few years later, he and new wife and me and my husband crossed paths, never seen him since. Finally, a few months passed and I met this young man and really thought he was the one that I could fall in love with. I got pregnant, again for the third time. But, I was 15 months and didn’t know it! While at work, I hemorrhaged in toilet…I thought that this was it for me and that I was going to have to have a hysterectomy. I was admitted to the hospital and learned that I was pregnant. At this time, I had to share with boyfriend and family that I was pregnant. Initially, I planned to keep my baby but after boyfriend said he was moving out of town and I wasn’t ready to raise a child on my own and nor was I married, I chose to abort my third baby. My life has never been the same. A cried to God that I wanted to be married before having children. Shortly thereafter, I met and married my husband of 37 years…he has 3 children from his marriage and we have two children. He is truly a gift from God. Finally, I shared my story to say this, my son and the mother of his three children started to abort their third son 🥲ten years ago, my grandson and I was able to share with them that they didn’t want to make the previous mistake that I had done. They would live to regret it. My grandson is such a joy to all. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about what might have been if my babies were given the opportunity to live. I am forgiven by God and I attended a post abortion Bible Study and a Healing Retreat with Rachel’s Vineyard about 18 years ago. I will spend the rest of my life sharing my story and encouraging others to not abort but seek prayers and guidance to remain abstinent before marriage and fight to save life if becomes pregnant. In hopes, my story will be passed on as personal experience to the world, tell it, tell it, tell it…don’t abort! Ruby

I always hoped I’d be blessed with a big family. Unfortunately after only 1 my husband filed for a divorce,:six months later returning and I conceived immediately. He said he would never recognize that 2nd child if I chose to keep it, and he would definitely complete the divorce. I did succumb, crying the whole way , believing it was my only hope for my 1 daughter 12 mo nths old and our marriage. That was it; he never came back again. Divorce went through. 46 years later I still see the pain from this.

After I aborted my 2nd pregnancy at my husband’s insistence, I realize , 46 years later some of it’s consequences. Such pain and shame, making a real trusting rerelationship impossible for me , and as a result, no dad for my only child, no sisters or brothers for her to grow up with, and now no cousins even, now that my only child has had 3 of her own. I continue to regret my caving to my husband who shortly after divorced me anyway. Please let your child be adopted if abortion is your only choice. Abortion is the choice you will forever regret for sooo many reasons

It’s been 13 years and I still cry in secret. What kind of mother doesn’t take care of her baby. I felt like I had no other options. I felt like I had no one. So when the clinic made me feel like they cared and was going to help me, I thought it was no big deal. I was blinded. They couldn’t get me in for the procedure for a month or so after my first visit. My baby, my baby was so far along and I killed her. The only person who could help her, was the one person that hurt her. I didn’t feel hurt until about 2 years after I had done it because I had mentally blocked it out for as long as I could. And to this day, I feel like sometimes it takes my breathe away to remember what I did to her. I know God has forgiven me but I don’t know if I ever can forgive myself. How can my baby ever forgive me. My precious baby, I’m sorry. I made a mistake that I can not fix. There are no words that could express my remorse.