I’ve hung on to the guilt 40 yrs

Thanks so much for this site being here that Im so glad I don’t suffer alone,I’ve hung on to the guilt 40 yrs. My mom turned her back on me then and my boyfriend didn’t help me with my options he said it’s my body you have to deside,I felt all alone,now we have to make our ammends with god,I struggle he forgives,though he loves us anyway and our sins are forgiven