As a single mom with a toddler I had good days and bad . Some times I would want another baby so much and then my logic brain would chime in and direct me back to staying a single mom with one child instead of two . Anyways – I ended up falling in love with a man who would eventually get me pregnant and I was so disappointed in his reaction when I found out I was pregnant . At first I cried because I knew we were fucked . Then my heart ached because I was so torn over keeping the baby and being left to care for both my kids alone . I wanted to keep my child . The father made it clear that it wasn’t me as a person why he didn’t want the baby, but that it was bad timing . I ended up having a medical abortion at 6 weeks . I knew I had to make the decision as quick as possible and basically knowing that if I chose to keep the baby I would struggle tremendously. I was ready to take it on until my body basically gave up on me . I was more tired than I’d ever been in my life . I thought I was going to die I was so depressed . I had no appetite. No nausea , just back and leg pain and having zero energy to take care of my daughter . My mother was supportive of my decision either way but made it clear that she would not be able to help me as much with this child if I had went through with the pregnancy. I cried the whole time I went to the drs office . They make you take the first pill there . I didn’t even have the option to keep the medicine for a few days and make sure I was sure. Within 48 hours I had to take the second medication . When I inserted the pills inside me , I had the most heart breaking cry I’ve ever experienced . I thought my heart really broke . It was the worst feeling of not being able to go back and make a different decision . My advice to any woman who may be conflicted about whether to have an abortion or not is that if you want to keep that baby then keep it . Do not let anyone or any circumstance drive your decision because you will regret it for a very long time . I will never get an abortion again . Ever .
Follow your heart.