I’m sorry what I have done…I wished I walked out of that cold room waiting for them to take you, I went back and forth in my head just go now tell them you changed your mind, then no just do it , you can’t have another kid … selfish decision of me ! Who I’m I to take a life I was creating inside of me? I was a 34yr old grown women …Yes I was overwhelmed with my 3 kids already and also a full time manager position at my job. I was scared to take on anymore …Shame on me I could have made it work…The biggest regret in my life , if I could I would of left that room with my baby..It was April 14th 2020 at 8 weeks pregnant. I asked for the picture of the ultrasound because I needed something left of you to never forget. Every day doesnt go by I dont think about the regret of causing my babies death. I still carry you and pain has never left my heart. I hope one day I can forgive my self…
I still carry you…
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Wow…..Im very sorry for your loss. I’m a guy so I can’t really relate in any way but my friend had an abortion and is still brought to tears many years later saying, “I killed my boy.” She attended a support group with other women who’ve experienced the same thing. The reason why I am here is because I went online looking for people who share similar stories. However, I first googled the subject and I was really floored that psychologists or people conducted studies concluded that women are not at all impacted by their experiences. Furthermore, they go on to say this is all fabricated by antiabortion activists. You would have to be an extremely cold individual to be so cavalier and so certain in such an assertion to even make such a claim to support a political ideology. There’s no thought to the individual’s who go through this experience and a complete disregard for life expectancies which are not looked back on found memories. These stories are heartbreaking and my heart goes out to all of you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. Tim
I could’ve written this post. I’m so sorry. You aren’t alone and though you’ll never forget, you’ll heal. God bless you, I’ll always pray for you.