I was shattered and heartbroken

I just turn 19 this year, I discovered I was pregnant when I didn’t get my period, I decided to take a pregnancy and I was so excited. When I found out I was pregnant I decided to hide it from my parent and the rest of the family, I only told how I trusted. My boyfriend was very supportive and was also happy. A week after I started spitting alot, started vomiting every time I brushed my teeth, I tried my best to hide it until my grandmother saw the signs. She suggested I was pregnant to my mother and she flipped, my mother was also in her late pregnancy. She said some horrible things to me, that I was a disgrace and I’m carrying a disgrace into the world and I needed to get rid of it or leave her house, she wouldn’t support me anymore. I was shattered and heartbroken, my boyfriend was still in school he couldn’t help me much, I’m suffering, I’m lost and I feel like I’m losing it. I did something I didn’t wanted to do because everyone kept pressuring me, my boyfriend doesn’t support me getting an abortion but he cannot help me. I just can’t get through this, I spend my days crying and finding ways to end myself and no one notices because no one cares. I can’t even look in the mirror anymore