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I was raped when I was a teenager, I took a pregnancy test and I was pregnant. So I had a abortion. I think about it everyday. Then when I was married I had a molar pregnancy. That haunts me terribley. But I had a baby girl after all of that.

I am 24, with a daughter who is only 10 months old. Single mother. I’ve been seeing a different guy for a few months, we used protection but yesterday I found out I am pregnant. Only 4-5 weeks. I instantly thought I’m definitely getting an abortion. I already ordered the abortion pill on heyjane. But I’m afraid of regretting it forever. I feel like such a whore, even though I don’t sleep around. Pregnant with two different men in a two year time frame.
I was dating the first guy for two years and he left me when I was 14 weeks pregnant and ignored me my entire pregnancy.
I’ve dated/known this guy for 5 months.
I just feel like I’m going to go to hell. I keep wondering who they will be if I dont abort. How will I live? Will I be able to give my daughter who is already here the love that she deserves? Am I a bad mom? I’m torn. I’m so so torn. I do not know what to do. I wish I could go back in time and never let this happen. I wish I never spoke to a man. I wish I just kept all of my focus on my daughter and never dated again. I know once the baby is here I will view them as a blessing. But I’m selfishly thinking about my own feelings and it makes me feel even shittier.

I had sex once and got pregnant. I was told if he pulled out before he came. I could not get pregnant. My Mom had told me if I ever came home pregnant, she would disown along with my adopted family. My boyfriend said ” Are you sure it’s mine?”. I just turned 18 and scared to death. I did not know what to do, but my friend’s Mom did- Abortion. She took me to a private Doctor. She was very cold,very sterile and annoyed I was scared and upset. I had an abortion.
I went college, but was sickly. Having these fainting spells. Snagging a bathtub at college took me a week, but I finally hot Mt turn. I could not wait to soak and relax. When I rolled over on my stomach, I felt a baseball in my belly. I was sure I had cancer or the Doctor did something wrong. I went to a doctor at a clinic on Monday and I was still pregnant. I had to tell my Mom, I had no choice. She set up and paid for me to abort the possible reformed ” fetus” in NYC HOSPITAL. I was in a very large room with 19 other girls. I was 5 months pregnant by now. The would perform a saline induced abortion where they go through your stomach into the amniotic sac. I could feel the baby thrash a few times and become still. I then after a few hours began going into labor. After 4-5 hours, I gave birth to my still baby in a room with other girls doing the same. Including a 12 year old girl whose Mom cried by her bed repeating ” I’m sorry, I’m sorry” The Mother’s boyfriend raped her daughter. One by one, we rested and went home. I took a bus ride 5 hours back to college. By the time I got back. All the girls knew because my roommate told EVERYONE! I could no longer deal with my shame and left college.
I was never able to have children, we tried and I lost three from a compromised cervix, possibly from initial abortion, nor did we adopt as we could not afford private adoption and state placed children , well tattooed and not prim and proper placed a stigma at that time. I wish I never allowed people to influence me and I wish I was stronger and knew more, but I was only 18. There is never a day I don’t think of Gabriel. Abortion should not be used as birth control. Adoption is a better avenue. I am still fucked up in the head.

I don’t even know how to start this bc I still can’t believe it happened to me.I was 16 years old I would have never even imagined me seeing a positive pregnancy test but there I was looking at two pink lines that popped right up I was so scared my first thought was I need an abortion I didn’t want my parents to find out so my boyfriends step mom I told and she tried to get me one right away she was so nice about the whole thing and didn’t judge me I was scared what if my mom found out his step mom couldn’t get me one so at this point I’ve known for a month and my parents still didn’t know I told myself I was gonna keep it bc I felt like I could do it and I ended up telling my mom I thought I was pregnant I lied and said my period was late knowing I hadn’t had one in a month and a half she got me a test and of course it came back positive fast and I told her she was so upset and she cried and told me my childhood was over the next day she mad my dad come over and she made me tell him all I could do was cry I felt like they were so disappointed how could this happen to me and then my mom brought up me getting an abortion I knew since she brought it up that’s what they wanted me to do I was so sad because I wanted to keep it and I became attached already but I knew I had to so I made my appointment my dad came with me and they made me go in the back by myself so they could talk to me alone she asked me if this was what I wanted I said yes know I didn’t she did the ultrasound and there it was she told me I was 8 weeks and if I was gonna do it I would have to do it in the next couple days they scheduled it two days after and I bleed so bad and the pain I went through hurt so bad and here I am 6 months later still hurting about it I feel like the pain will never go away and I have no one to talk to about this because I feel like no one will understand and lately I’ve just been feeling like the only thing that can help with the pain is if I got pregnant again

Back in april 2020 right after covid had hit i had gotten pregnant. I had just turned 21 i didn’t have a place of my own and i was terrified i lived with my boyfriend and his cousin at the time and we had no room for another human. For 3 days i was vomiting to the point i could eat or drink i had to do something and that something was making a life changing decision i was scared confused and now i regret the decision of getting an abortion. i realize that would have gave me a purpose in life but now we have a beautiful house we have worked hard on for a year now and a puppy that loves them so very much and soon to have her little sister. I am 23 now still deal with terrible depression from it i cry a lot i get mood swings sometime but i feel like i did the wrong thing and there no going back

I got pregnant on May 17th of 2001..my baby was due on February 4th 2002. I was wanting a girl but my husband said if I kept the baby I could go live with my parents or have an abortion. I didn’t want to leave him so I did what he said..stupidest thing ever..we are still together but I can’t wait to see my baby boy or girl in heaven..

Although at the time I became pregnant (40 years ago) I could not see this at all, God was trying to bless me with that unwelcome pregnancy. Children are indeed a gift from the Lord, an inheritance meant to bless us. (Psalm 127:3-5).
Now looking back, I can clearly see how the entire trajectory of my life would have been so much more blessed if I had not terminated the pregnancy. The baby that I had been given would have turned my pain and anger from a lifetime full of rejection into a life more full of love and joy. Any hardship or judgment I would’ve endured would have been obscured by the love I would have experienced as a mother to that precious baby. All I accomplished with abortion was to drive myself deeper into the darkness that was my world. Thankfully, the Light of the Lord Jesus can overcome any darkness and His forgiveness restores all who seek it. But my life would have been much much better had I not chosen abortion and faced whatever hardships I might’ve endured. Because wherever God’s providence takes us, if we trust Him in it, provision will be made for us. Trust in the Lord with all your heart ladies, and lean not on your understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
And I’m so sorry to my child who I destroyed … so very very sorry 🙁