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I was three months pregnant my mother was highly upset with my pregnancy telling me my boyfriend doesn’t love me he had too many children she was going to disown me if I did not have an abortion. I was old enough to make my own decision but fear of losing my mother in the process and having a boyfriend who was mentally and physically abusive made me come to this decision …. I went to the clinic and I was the first one to go for the procedure my heart ached because I didn’t want to do it …. The nurses gave me 8 I b prophen because they ran out of medication , I layed on the table I NEVER in my life felt so much pain I screamed to the top of my lungs it was so painful, every time I screamed the doctor dug in worse every time the nurse came back in saying I scared another patient away he cut me harder … I swear this doctor cut out my tubes …. He made me sign a sheet and told me he was going to tie my tubes …. Then ripped up the paper after I screamed out and was crying …. For 6 years I have tried to concieve again I don’t know if the doctor really did make it where I can’t have children I have suffered so much I do remember that I had a white cloth over my stomach after the procedure … And not bleeding for a week ….. I’m still extremely traumatized ….. I made the biggest mistake in my life !

i has 19 with 2 children already 3 and 5 ….little girls …their father and me had split and i was seeing another guy….well towards the end of our relationship i was staying with my daughters father so i could spend time with them being i had just sold my falling apart trailer…well i cheated on my bf with my daughters father after being with my bf the day before…so obviously you know where this is going i got pregnant and didnt know who the father was….i was homeless with no income and 2 children already at 19….but i wanted this baby nonetheless i loved being a mother!!! my daughters father and bf both wanted me to get a abortion knowing i didnt know who the father was…still i wanted this baby…..then my ex mother in law got involved and said shed pay for the abortion….i still wanted the baby…but agreed if i was early enough to just take the pill id do it(thinking i was to far or would be by the time of my apointment) so my appointment comes and she takes me…theres all these protesters with signs of aborted babys pictures….i start balling…. I CANT DO THIS!!! i think and cry!! i agreed to go back and when i seen the baby and its hearbeat i broke down I WAS NOT DOING THIS …THIS IS MY BABY I WANT IT!! i will raise it alone if they dont want to help!! i tell them im not doing it and figured id tell her i took the pill and lie and deal with it later when it was too late to do anything…..well the lady there said just take this tylenol incase you change your mind in the time to wait and see the doctor so i did because i had a headache from crying so much…when i went back finally to tell the doctor i had made up my mind i was keeping my baby he told me that it was too late the lady gave me the first pill so i asked what would happen if i didnt take the next pill tomorrow and he told me the first pill kills the baby and the next one the following day is what flushes it out so i had a dead baby regardless and it could stay in me and rot orrr i could get it out of me so !
i could have another baby one day…..i broke down i wanted to die with my baby I HATED MYSELF i let them pressure me into this WHAT KIND OF MOTHER WAS I TO NOT STAND UP FOR HER CHILD?? PLANNED PARENTHOOD LIED TO ME —-THEY KILLED MY BABY THAT I TOLD THEM I WANTED—–THEY TRICKED ME!!!

im sooo sorry to by angel baby …one day ill be there with you so i can apoligize the only thing i think of as to why this happened is that you were to perfect for the world and god had better plans for you up there!!

my life has been ruined because of this though !!! i got hooked on pills and my daughters were put in foster care even though ive been clean for 2 years i still dont have them back my ex mother in law got them after they were in foster care for a year…..i now have a 16 week little boy and am still fighting for my daughters they will be home with me and their little brother !! soon i hope :/

—-regretful mother –depressed and remorseful–

I’m a 24 year old lady. I was only 17 when I found out I was pregnant, my first thoughts to be honest was an abortion. I couldn’t stand the fact that I was pregnant at such a young age still depending on a single mother of 4. I was so depressed, eventually I pulled myself together and told my baby daddy. He wasn’t very happy about the pregnancy either but for some reason my mind changed. I fell in love with a little guy growing inside of my. He was so cute even waved at me when I when for my second check up. Financially I knew this wouldn’t work as much as I wanted it to I’m still in school. I have no income and my baby daddy just didn’t care at all. I went through with the abortion and 7 years later I’m still crying. I still feel cheated, I dream about him. If only I didn’t do it. If there’s any guy reading this going through the same situation tell your girl you in this together. All they need is that security to feel safe and know they not alone. The scars of an abortion will stay with you forever not matter where you find yourself its a painful experience you’ll never forget.

I was told recently my dad pushed my mom trying to make her abort me. I’m 32 and it was a big blow, simply because he wanted her to barhop with him. I’ve never believed in that no matter WHAT.

When I was a senior in high school I had a abortion not by my will but by my parents after I had a abortion I had so much guilt and shame. I never talked about it. I left my family’s home 6 months after the abortion I couldn’t stand my parents or to be in the same room with my parents. I never even ate dinner with them I ate in my bedroom with the door locked. I went to church as a child But salvation was never mention in the church so my parents where not saved and either was I. I didn’t get saved till I was 37 years old.

I started using drugs and selling my body to get the money for the drugs after my abortion. I couldn’t stand not to be high because the pain and the nightmares of the abortion was so bad. I needed something to numb the pain so I used drugs and sex the abortion clinic told me it was a procedure and the baby was just tissue. I will go on with my life that was not true don’t believe their lies.

I suffered deep depression for years due to the abortion no medication help. I didn’t go to church or have anything to do with God for about 20 years. Because I felt I was unworthy to be a Christian and how could God love someone like me I killed a baby. I felt why didn’t God stop it well I held on to this for years.

Then I blamed myself. I could of said no, but I didn’t. I was 18 years old i was legal age people younger than me have had a baby. Well I got saved and I thought everything was finished with the issue of the abortion I really did. Then I went to a healing service at my church one Sunday the pastor said if anyone who ever had a abortion come up front. The first thing I thought… oh know what are they going to think about me if I confess this horrible sin please Lord i can’t do this i started to panic. I really didn’t want to go up front but the holy spirit pushed me out of my chair that Sunday. The pastor also said that Sunday that God told him to preach on past sins it was memorial day weekend. He said even if the abortion even took place along time ago right then and there I knew that was God was using my pastor that got my attention.

I went up front I started crying hectically from know where I have never did that before I couldn’t stop crying. I couldn’t even look at the pastor or the lady praying for me in the eyes because I felt so ashamed and guilty about the abortion. I didn’t know I had these’s emotions inside of me. I went home and I laid down for awhile after church.

I woke up my heart felt different it was like 20 pounds was lifted off my heart it was like the chains of guilt and shame was gone i felt happy. I have a new heart I finally have freedom from the past and I can breath without all that heaviness. I never know I had that much guilt and shame but I guess I buried it so much inside of me I didn’t know I had it.

6 months ago I would never have told anyone about the abortion because I was so ashamed of it and I felt guilty about it. Then Jesus told me to start telling people about my abortion because it’s my testimony and I shouldn’t be ashamed of it anymore. I forgave God my parents and myself for the abortion that took place in 1979. I have held onto this guilt and shame that long it’s the worst thing that has ever happened in my life and I finally have freedom from it.

If you have had a abortion God can set you free you from the guilt and shame that goes alone with having a abortion and give you freedom from the past. If your thinking about a abortion please don’t do it. It will destroy your life. The depression and guilt and shame that goes along with it is awful it’s like you’re in your own living hell. The best way I can describe a abortion is it’s like it’s your soul has been ripped out of your body and you will never be the same again. And no drugs or sex can fill emptiness inside of you Only Jesus can. I don’t know why that abortion took place but one thing I do know if I never would of had that abortion I would of never be the Christian. I am today. God told me one day in church what my baby’s name is. He said his name is Thomas and he looks just like my daughter.

Since I have freedom in Christ from the past God has laid it on my heart to pray for women who has a abortion and the aborted babies that has died due to a abortion. It gives me so much pleasure to pray for this I can feel there pain and sorrow. I feel that God has finally gave me a purpose through prayer my new heart has so much Love and peace now I feel like a new person inside and out. There’s not a day that don’t go by I don’t think about Thomas. but one thing I do know he’s in heaven with The heavenly Father. Well this is my testimony God can forgive you of any past sin and give you freedom from your past you just have to trust in Jesus to give you freedom.

I got pregnant just before New Years’ 2000. Every year is a reminder of how old my first child would have been. I loved the father and his family dearly and had known them for years, but he was young and not ready/interested in committing to me so he skipped town and I had no way to reach him (this was before everybody had cell phones) Occasionally, he’d call me out of the blue and try and convince me to have an abortion. Meanwhile, my mother (who I was living with at the time) didn’t approve of him and didn’t consider my life together-enough to handle motherhood so she felt abortion the only reasonable option, even though I felt deeply torn. Thanks to an amazing counselor at Planned Parenthood, I came to the realization that I did feel ready to be a mother, and decided that I could make it happen, even if I had to do it on my own. I am forever grateful to this therapist for helping me to believe in myself and see that my heart really wanted the child. I cancelled my abortion and went to stay with old friends in another city. I would have probably moved forward with keeping the baby but the father showed up– this time in person, and his anxiety about the situation, coupled with my profound love for him (and desire to not “ruin his life”) plunged me again into confusion. Ultimately, I felt so ashamed about my inability to be strong and my various “attempts” to abort the child that I bowed my head in grief and shame and went through with the abortion after all. The 2 or 3 years after this event are lost in grief and regret, and I fought nearly constant suicidal feelings even though I had never had mental illness before. Any life goals I thought I would achieve by having the abortion no longer seemed important, and it took a lifetime of strength and mountains of support and resources to be able to move forward and get anything done in those years. I now consider myself healed, though I also think that a part of me never truly healed till I had another child in 2007. And even though!
I made the best of those years– traveling and going back to school, I would still take the decision back in a heartbeat. My advice to other women is… if you are considering abortion for financial reasons, or because of pressure from your parents or the father– be warned! Regret and grief may sound like something you can handle, but there is truly NOTHING akin to loosing a child you want to keep and nobody except you will have to experience those feelings. And even if only 51% of you wants to keep the child, that’s still the majority of you. Don’t let that other noisy, angry, fearful 49% drown out your heart’s desires or make you feel ashamed, because every mother feels unprepared and afraid and nobody ever feels financially ready. I believe abortion should be kept safe and legal, but I also believe that freedom of choice should include the freedom to keep your child, and nobody but the mother should be allowed to consider abortion. What a pregnant woman really needs is support for keeping her child, and re-assurance that everything will turn out fine. The fact that abortion is an option does not make it (or adoption for that matter) an easy-out solution in a culture that makes parenthood very expensive and difficult. Don’t punish yourself because of the failings of society– let’s change society instead!

I was involoved with a guy 3 years older than me we meant through my cousin he told me that he loved me and I was the most beautiful girl he ever met I was still a virgin at that time he broke my virginity after 3 months of being together.not knowing about sex and all of that I missed my periods later that month and after that I called and informed me to my supurised he told me that he did not use a condom I was not thinking clearly and had no money I carried the baby for 7 months felt it kick and had the pregnacy signs anfter I discovered he was cheating I had a abortion I went to a lady by the name of zahra she did everything it was painfull I couldnot walk it was 3 weeks of pains my baby was killed by me I I’m a murder I wil never forget that day I did it now I’m dating a lovly guy but I burst into tears when he mentions that he wants a baby I still need help june will be one 1 of aborting my baby worse of al I did not want to even see what sex is it I only saw the face it look so peacefull