I was on birth control and with my long time boyfriend, had dreams of traveling and living more before having kids. I felt strange and took a test and was pregnant. I struggled for a while with the decision to keep the baby, it seems so monumental at the time. A baby, how will I provide for them? They’ll take away my freedom. I’m now tied to my boyfriend forever (what if we split up?)… I hated pregnancy and never felt ‘connected’ to the baby. And I’m ashamed to say I considered abortion. I kept cancelling appointments for the pill, but considering it all the way through the first trimester; simply put, commitment to 18 years was hard. But I’m here to say, the best thing I’ve ever done is cancel those appointments. I didn’t fall in love immediately, I even considered adoption until about 38 weeks of pregnancy, but holding him now at 8 months, seeing his little happy face and stretches, his laugh and his bright eyes. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for him now. That’s the reality of cancelling an abortion. No one ever tells you the JOY of having a baby it seems, only the hard parts. The people that struggle the most are sometimes the ones that need the most love, and the love that your little baby can give you is unsurpassable. They say, ‘just wait until you’re up all night with the baby’, yes. Just wait until you stay up staring at them as they sleep because you’re just so in love and in awe. They say ,‘just wait, you won’t have any time to yourself’, yes, you won’t want any time away from that little baby you have such a connection with. They say ‘you’ll never finish school/ get where you should be with a job’, what better ‘job’ is there, that you can do for the future, than raise a beautiful child? They don’t hold you back. They give you a reason to work harder. Being a parent isn’t all perfect, but it’s so natural, so rewarding, and you may find you love even yourself more. I sure did. Please consider this, I wish someone would have told me how much light a child give to your world, society seems to try to sell the darkness. Don’t listen!!!! Please know that there are brighter days ahead, no matter how dark it may seem now. It’s not the end of the world, it’s a beautiful beginning. Every problem that you have now will be so far behind you, and all that will matter are those big beautiful eyes and that happy laugh and smile.