I live in Oregon, with a Planned Parenthood just an hour north of me, and it felt like it was the right thing to do. My boyfriend wasn’t ready to be a father, my mom felt like I shouldn’t be a mother just yet, and I felt like I wanted something more in my life before becoming a mother. I ended up choosing the surgical procedure, my mom even took me to the clinic and waited for me. I was at a party on New Year’s Eve when it hit me that I should have been 6 months pregnant, but instead I decided to have a suction tube remove it from me. I left that party in tears, my friends thinking that I was crying because of some guy. I just wish I never did it, I wish I was pregnant, and I wish I had the courage on keeping what should have been my first child.