It’s hard to know where to start. I ask God for the words I write. If one person sees them and decides to keep their baby, I hope and pray it will go towards forgiveness for my own. I was born in California 1961. Following the sex, drugs and good people that did bad things crowd. Believing in God, but not yet receiving the Holy Spirit. As a teen, I learned of PP. We all thought it was really cool to be able to go get condoms and Birth control pills(wasn’t thinking of abortion at that time) without our parents consent. As a parent now, that’s is an outrageous thing. It was also unclear to many what stage was the baby considered a human. I was in a relationship with a married(having problems and dissolving)person, and got pregnant. My thinking at the time was…I don’t want it to be a trap and felt I wasn’t ready. With the thought of Going in and doing it early before it was a person. It wasn’t until many years later, after having a child, I was taking a shower, it hit me so hard(The Holy Spirit)!! I couldn’t breathe and couldn’t stop sobbing. I felt my soul was doomed to Hell! At the time, many family members read scripture and would tell me, God will forgive me. But, when it comes to the time to meet God, It will be between him and me. I pray and ask for forgiveness everyday. My heart is heavy and I grieve over the loss all the time. I made my choice. I can’t take it back. I think I would have chosen differently if there hadn’t have been a Planned Parenthood!!! I will accept any prayers for my soul. And pray this reaches many people and saves even one baby. I pray In Jesus name for all who do not know. Amen You can’t take it back!!