I had an #abortion few weeks ago…. I knew it wasn’t a right choice but I have no other choice, I have a bf, we weren’t in a good term so I cheated with a married man and I found out i am pregnant last month on the 21st the result showed “faintly positive” my world crumble right in front of me… What will I tell my family? My bf? What will the society say about me? I’m still in university then I opt for abortion pill, I took it in the night and with much tension and anxiety I purged throughout the night, then no bleeding till day break when I saw blood spotting (not bleeding) after a week I went for another blood test and it was positive again (not faintly again) I swallowed hard then book an appointment for D&C on the 11th of this month, I laid on the table thinking is this the right thing? Do you know why the pill failed? The process was painful i would never want to go through again, I screamed hard and after it I had the worst cramp ever and no jst a light bleeding for that day no more bleeding, I felt relieved and the same time felt remorseful and still beating myself till date… Yesterday I did urine PT at home and it showed positive I’m scared cause I don’t understand what’s happening again, since yesterday I’m seeing blood spotting again….. I’m so devastated and thinking of suicide, what if the baby just want to stay? Why am I still positive?
The process was painful i would never want to go through again, I screamed hard