I recently turned 42 years old and I just want to say that I had two abortions, one when I was 23 and the other when I was 27. I am never to forget what I did, and I am never going to forgive myself. I have a daughter who is 12 years old, and I am glad I have her in my life, but it’s impossible not to think of the other two I should have. Texas is making the news right now with this new abortion ban that they have, and I pray that it stays that way. Anyway, I just had to say something.
I’m here now reading all of these stories and my heart goes out to all of you. I’m so sorry any of you had to experience this pain. I am pregnant now and almost 3 months along, and my ex wants nothing to do with me. He blocked me and said he’ll see me in 7 months because he only wants to provide for the child if I decide to have it. He’s been badgering me and trying to manipulate me into having an abortion for weeks now. I went to planned parenthood today about to go through with it and I couldn’t stop crying. I rescheduled the appointment and got up and left. I couldn’t go through with it. I don’t think I can. I don’t want to kill my baby!! It hurts me so much that he doesn’t want to be involved in my pregnancy. But I don’t need him, I can figure this out on my own. It’s scary, but I can find resources to help me through this. M And after reading everything everyone said, I know in my heart that I can’t go through with this abortion. I want my baby. I’m still so conflicted, but I’m feeling a lot better about deciding to keep it. Thank you everyone for sharing your stories ❤️ I’m so sorry any of you went through this and didn’t have the support you needed. To anyone trying to decide to have an abortion or not, read through these stories. It might be hard at first, but everything will pay off in the long run if you decide to keep it. There’s so many resources and government assistance for single mothers. You can do it!
I am 60 and this decision I made at 23 is one of my life’s biggest regret.
My ex-girlfriend abruptly ended our relationship. A few months later she reached out to ask for forgiveness and told me she ended our relationship because she was pregnant and thought I wasn’t going to be with her. Truth is, she was seeing another man and wanted to try things out with new guy. New guy took her to have the abortion. When she called me to apologize, it was 530 AM and I said “oh I was dreaming we were playing with a beautiful baby girl” I forgive the infidelity but cannot and will not forgive her for killing my baby. Everyday I think what the baby would have looked like.
Hi, I wanted to jump on here and tell you what’s been on my heart for a while… I had and abortion 8 years ago. I still cry to this day and probably always will. What I did was horrible. I took the abortion pill. What that does to the baby is organ failure untill the heart stops. I basically gave my baby a heart attack. I murdered my baby 😭😭 for the longest time, I wanted to be hit by a bus and scream in silence till death, just like my baby did. I was told by “friends” that “it was for the best”. I’m here to tell you, that is a lie. DO NOT listen to friends or medical who say this. Please if you know someone who’s struggling with this or about to abort, tell them it’s not worth it! Please don’t judge us. Help women who are going through this. We were ignorant. Believe me, we already know we screwed up and did the worst thing possible. We already want someone or something to murder us so we can feel what our baby’s felt. But God in his amazing grace forgave me. I know because I have 2 handsome healthy boys. There is hope for us, but please don’t commit this horrible act. Before my 2 boys, I had 3 miscarriages. All because of the abortion. Murdering an unborn child not only takes a toll on you mentally, but physically too. It reduces any chances of future children. Planned Parenthood was and still is evil! They didn’t even have any emotion in what they were doing. They just said” here, take this”. I’m not looking for sympathy nor judgment. Just had to share There is only one judge and that’s God.
I made the biggest mistake of my life and didn’t see it ,until it was to late. I regret going through with the abortion. Im lost ,hurt,and the guilt is eating me alive. I want my baby’s im still unsure why I did it. Probably pressure from the father? Maybe fear? Don’t unless you have to or know a 100 percent its what you want.
When you’re born into a certain family with certain traditional lifestyle and when you have a manipulating mother that’s evil that all I wanted was a love until I started watching videos on YouTube of how women had babies at 20 weeks or 14 weeks 28 weeks I had a 2-day procedure of a abortion first it was the clamps and then the second date was the procedure when I went into the operation room I had to be there at 8 in the morning from 8 until 12 at night I cried dad asked me an operation room if I wanted to do it and before I said no I remember falling asleep I had asked them what my daughter look like they said she was full of hair and she was Junkie it’s so hard for me to talk about this because it’s like nobody listens or I’m to blame my mom had manipulative me and told me that if I didn’t get rid of this baby that she would take my other child away from me which she did have temporary custody of you never gave me my daughter back so I know that this is not my fault she is manipulating me plenty of times but not anymore I then had another daughter named Emma I was not going to give her up I don’t care what my mother said but if I can go back in time and go get Ava I would do anything to go and get her I would give my own life to have her at least you would be with her sisters I feel her sometimes and I know that I’m going to go to hell for this but I tell myself that maybe I won’t because my mom knows how to manipulate me and now to make me do things and dangle things in front of me I have went into shelters and I almost got apartments and right before I got them she told me to come home stay with your baby I left all my clothes all my belongings and went home to stay with my child she was my first baby I couldn’t have kids when my parents arranged marriage meet I was 15 years old the man was 21 years old add caught chlamydia and my fallopian tubes or burnt after that me and my sister and my cousin were how my sister had to leave because she was going to get in trouble by her boyfriend that night I have gotten raped six months later I went into the hospital for throwing up and not keeping any food down found out that I was pregnant I couldn’t believe what the doctor was telling me he said you know what your name is Layla and my daughter’s name is Layla and we just gave birth to her maybe this is a sign I couldn’t believe that I was pregnant because all I did was but what I did to Ava was Unforgivable and I can’t seem to forgive myself it’s hitting me now worse than ever because now that I want another child I don’t believe that I deserve one I don’t even believe that I deserve Emma and she’s autistic I sent in bed all day wondering what my daughter would have sounded like once you would have look like how she would have hugged me so many things running through my head I found this website I’m hoping somebody can relate and I always talk to me because I feel nobody understands what I’m going through with that I didn’t miss you so much my angel angel and I will never forget about you never