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As a 59 year old, I cry everyday, I feel like I’m losing my mind. My baby is dead. I don’t even know if it was a boy or a girl. I let them kill my baby because my parents gave me no choice but to have an abortion. I was 15 years old. I was too young to understand what was going to happen. My mom and dad was so angry at me. My dad made my mom and brother take me to a clinic about 2 hours away, the next day. They did an ultrasound and I was too far along to have a regular abortion. I was 18 weeks. So I had to go to another clinic to have the baby. Scared and lone. The nurses were so mean to me. They talked down to me like I was a nobody. They had no idea what I had already been through. See… I was raped by an old boyfriend. My parents didn’t even care. It would shame our family. My experience was horrible. They took me to a room and stick a long needle in my stomach. I had not idea they were killing my baby like that. They didn’t tell me what they were doing. I was scared and in shock. They put me in a hospital bed and told me I would go into labor and have it. A day later after having contractions, I went to the restroom to pee. The babies body came out and the head got stuck. All I could see was it’s body, hands and feet. I tried to see what is was a boy or girl. I couldn’t tell. I rang the call bell and the nurse was not in any hurry and finally came in and got a cloth and pulled it’s head out. I will never forget this day as long as I live. I wished I had ran as fast as I could and found a women’s shelter for me to stay at to have the baby. Some way some how we would had made it. I would have that precious baby with me today. I’ve been in therapy years and years off and on. It doesn’t help. I’m not a happy person. I hate myself. If only I could have tried to run away, if I had to known where to go. If you are thinking about doing it, please don’t. I relive it everyday 24/7. It will eat you alive. I know my baby is in Heaven and I will meet him or her one day but I can’t live like this anymore. I’m dead inside and out…… Only the Grace of God can I get me through this. I need your prayers. Thank you in advance.

I’m sorry what I have done…I wished I walked out of that cold room waiting for them to take you, I went back and forth in my head just go now tell them you changed your mind, then no just do it , you can’t have another kid … selfish decision of me ! Who I’m I to take a life I was creating inside of me? I was a 34yr old grown women …Yes I was overwhelmed with my 3 kids already and also a full time manager position at my job. I was scared to take on anymore …Shame on me I could have made it work…The biggest regret in my life , if I could I would of left that room with my baby..It was April 14th 2020 at 8 weeks pregnant. I asked for the picture of the ultrasound because I needed something left of you to never forget. Every day doesnt go by I dont think about the regret of causing my babies death. I still carry you and pain has never left my heart. I hope one day I can forgive my self…

In December of 2020 I had an abortion. I had two beautiful children already and a “supportive” husband. I got an abortion because I’m in nursing school and it would have delayed my graduation. I also got an abortion because my mom offered to pay for it, and told me there was no way I can handle a third child. I got it because my husband said we have so much debt and we are struggling already financially- we just don’t have the money for this right now. I also got the abortion because I have ADHD and did not want to stop taking my adderall when the obgyn told me I had to. I worked too hard at school to quit or fail now. What stupid reasons to take a life. The life of my child. That day is etched in my memory- the cold hard table, the sound of the suction machine, the joke the dr made about how “atleast now I can go get a margarita once it over” it was excruciatingly painful. I was only 8 weeks pregnant but it felt like a huge mass was being torn from my body. I bled for weeks. I got drunk every night to the point of blacking out. I completely rejected my children, I couldn’t even look at them without breaking down. I was angry and alone. It’s the middle of February 2021 and I’m just now able to get up in the morning and carry out a somewhat normal day. I truly believe that abortion should be illegal- if it had been I wouldn’t have made the biggest mistake of my life. Abortion NEVER goes away. Every second of every day I carry an exhausting amount of shame and guilt. I can’t sleep because the second I close my eyes I have flashbacks of the procedure and the feeling of a dr tearing my baby from me. God I wish I never did that.

I always wanted a kid & dreams of being being a great mom. Well March 2020 of course , I found out I was pregnant ( I was 23). I cried because it was unexpected but, I was still happy. Is absolutely loveeeeeee kids!! Now I’m not sure if I could get over my abortion to have another. I will always see it as my first child. I think about the baby everyday & what it would have look like, the gender EVERYTHING! No one around me supported me everyone talked behind my back. I felt pressured to get an abortion. The funny thing is the same people who pressured me now isn’t here helping me get through my grief. It’s so heartbreaking! I regret this so much, I feel like I’m losing my mind. This was the worst thing I’ve ever did in my life. It eats me up inside everyday.I feel like I’m slowly giving up on life. Be strong ladies we got this. Love you guys ❤

I had my first son at age 22. I was a star athlete in college, Division 1, so I missed out on a lot of things, and I was only dating the guy I fell pregnant with for a few months. We were safe, he wore condoms (most of the time) and I was on birth control. My first son is a miracle baby. My at time boyfriend stuck by me even though I gave him a way out. We have been happily married for 5 years and together for ~7.5. I am now 30 and I found out I was pregnant again. We were taken by surprise and panicked and recently had an abortion. We were 50/50 between keeping the baby and aborting. But it came down to, if we weren’t initially happy about it, how could proceed with it. I am 3 days post abortion, and it was the biggest mistake I have ever made. The moment the abortion pill hit my hand I knew it was wrong. I have cried everyday and haven’t eaten in 3 days. My heart hurts, I feel like such a monster, and I regret going through with it. I feel so empty and broken. To my baby, I’m so sorry!!

words can not describe the emptiness i feel inside of me. I’m 17years old , i just had my abortion this month and the pain and guilt i feel is almost unbearable. This guy who would of been the father of my child wasn’t even my boyfriend, we had just been hooking up on and off for months. Him and i were close friends for along time but we had just started hooking up that year. In december of 2020 i had realized my period was late , and i wasn’t to worried because my periods had always been irregular. This time was completely different, i felt off as if i almost knew the whole time i was pregnant. January 4th, 2021i took my first test. I prayed and prayed that it would be a negative and i could just go back to thinking it was my irregular period. My life changed completely that day when the 2 bright red lines had shown up. I was alone, in panic and scared. At first i felt so ashamed. “ How could i of been so irresponsible?” “ why, why”? i went back into my room and sat there and looked at myself in the the mirror for what felt like years. I was lost in my own world. I immediately texted this guy , and told him we needed to talk in person and so then we had met up and he had a good idea of what was up , but he honestly wasn’t ready for the “ i’m pregnant” to come out of my mouth. I saw it in his face the shock but quickly he controlled that and we sat there for a second. I was shaking uncontrollably, so scared for what was next. We started talking about the next steps , and a solution. I went back to my house and i told my mom and from the start she supported whatever choice i made. I went to his house that night to take a test in front of him. He saw the two lines pop up and he grabbed his phone right after and started looking up abortion clinics and our options. I sat there in absolute disbelief. So many emotions going through my head at once. Him and i both agreed that i should get an abortion because well number one , him and i were never together in the first place thats not any place for a child and two we are both still in high school about to graduate and he has college to look forward to and i have nursing school to accomplish. From that day i waited two full weeks with my baby inside of me. Every single day i felt closer and closer to my baby. Like it was just them and i. At this point , i had already scheduled an appointment for a medication abortion but everyday leading up to it felt like a nightmare. I didn’t want to hurt my baby. I didn’t want to hurt them. I wish i could of found out what the gender was but in my heart i always suspected it would be a boy. until Tuesday, Jan 19th came along when my mom and i drove down to the clinic. I remember how sad and how much i wanted to cry my eyes out sitting there in that clinic knowing that here i would be taking a pill to stop my baby’s heart beat. The look i gave my mom before swallowing that pill was a look of sheer pain and “i don’t want to do this” is all i thought. I swallowed the pill and felt so empty but i didn’t show it. It was all happening so fast i couldn’t even grasp on to it. Later on i inserted the pills and the pain i went through was absolutely terrible. I felt my sac fall into the toilet and i laid there on the ground in my bathroom absolutely hysterical but also in extreme pain. A few days later i went through another episode of extreme pain and saw my baby with my own eyes. I saw my baby with my own eyes and i will never ever forget it. Nothing will ever top how completely broken i felt from that moment on. I regretted everything i did in that moment. Absolutely everything, i wish i could go back and change it. I wish i could have my baby with me still. I wouldn’t feel so empty. I wouldn’t feel so sad i would have them with me always growing within me. Instead i made the biggest mistake of my life. Every single day from that point on i have not stopped thinking about it. The boy who would have been the father slowly drifted away after everything happened and i don’t get much support from him anymore. Just my mother. Only my mother. It hurts so bad , i wish i could take it all back. I want to hold my baby , i want them to be born in august like the lady said at the ultrasound. I wanted you and i’ll never ever forget you. I ask god for forgiveness every single day as i feel this heavy pain in my chest because i know my baby is up there with him right now . Just a matter of time before i ever get to see them. I’m so broken. I have so much more life to live to, i just don’t know how i’m going to live it from this point on only being 17 and having this much impact from an abortion is going to haunt me forever. & i have no clue how i’ll ever get over this. I am so empty.

I was 20 years old when I carried you for thirteen weeks in 1983 and then made the worst decision of my life. I regret taking your precious life every single second of every single minute of every single hour of every single day of every single week of every single month of every single year of my life since that dark day…… I know God forgave me many years ago when I got saved but I still struggle to this day with my decision to end a life that was a part of me. God gave me 2 beautiful children who grew up to give me 4 precious grandchildren I adore!