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Hi Im 21years old kind of crazy story i had an abortion at 20 years old NOV 6 2020 met my first love at 15 years old my first boyfriend my everything we was together for about 2 years and remain bestfriends on and off for years but long story short he committed a crime in back in 2015 we was 16 years old but he was released in 2019 he went back to jail i moved on with my life met my current boyfriend me and him have been dating for 2 years but we was having problems and decided to take a break my first love was released from prison in aug 2020 he found me got in contact i ended up pregnant in September but did not find out i was pregnant until the middle of OCT2020 and i was blessed with a beautiful soul but to selfish to open my eyes as soon in and out the hospital daily as soon as i found out i was pregnant everything happened so quickly i got back with my current boyfriend but was 3 months pregnant by my ex my first love real love triangle … I was so alone i was only 20 years old not exactly a perfect fit to take care of a baby alone by myself because i wasnt inlove with my ex anymore what we had was no longer an affect we remain best friends to each other and on the other hand i was committed to my current boyfriend (need to mention me and my ex only had sex once ) but yeah my current boyfriend did not even know until after i done it but my life did really change after my first and only abortion not only did i lose kill my baby at 9 weeks my first love (the fetus father) passed 2 days after i went through the procedure my life literally flashed before my eyes and everyday i not only have to deal with taking the one person who ever needed me but a careless act that was totally unacceptable but hey i am who i am and i cannot change what i have done and never will i ever forget you im just taking day by day and making better decision … I mean do you think im a bad person would you forgive me?

What an inconvenience!!
“Please, just go away. I dont want you!”
I had plans. Plans that didn’t involve an unwanted pregnancy. If I dont think about it maybe it will just go away. Did I really believe that? Guess I did. I left home and moved into my campus dorm room like nothing had changed. I even went to some wack party that night like nothing was even happening. But it was. Im too good for this. This beneath the way I saw myself….my hopes, my dreams, my future.

That was over 30 years ago. The difference between me then and you now is that I terminated the pregnancy and you have not. Unlike most people standing outside an abortion clinic holding signs and handing out pro-life literature, I actually had an abortion. About two weeks after the procedure the pregnancy was no longer an inconvenience. Life moved on, but not in any of the ways that I expected. The emotional and physiological damage that followed was and is very real. Trust me, you don’t get over it! After all, taking a life is a huge deal. People go to prison for it, right? How can this be any different? Worse because the life has no chance to defend itself. It can run, it can’t hide, it cant cry out for help. Somehow society has convinced us that this is ok.

I had an abortion. I’m sure the process hasn’t changed much. The “Rush” of it all. Put you in a room with other women, “some on the fence” others convinced that this is the right decision. You all talk about why this is for “the best.” A way to lessen your anxiety with a “we’re all in this together” mentality. A less intense group mob against against life. And we think the people on the outside of the clinic chanting with the handouts and signs are the mob. They are the voice for the voiceless who are not being heard in this so-called pre counseling. Inadmissible evidence in the court.

Next your off to have an ultrasound to determine how far along you are. Again, Inadmissible evidence in the court. They won’t ask you if you want to see it for fear that you will see life, choose life. Its real. They know its real. 30 years later I KNOW IT WAS REAL!!! Life moved on but my conscience is still in that room on that table. Im not over it. Shame, sadness, and regret have followed me.

Somehow the grace of God has seen me worthy of the blessing of four children. And one who was actually another inconvenient unplanned pregnancy! But by then I should’ve been old enough to know better, right? Thats the point. You will eventually come back around to face things you didn’t get right. Sometimes we recognize it and sometimes we don’t.

You may feel like you don’t have any alternatives but thats not true. There’s always an alternative. Being pregnant is not easy but its doable. Life is full of “inconveniences.” Just because there’s a seemingly easy way out doesn’t mean you should take it. Please consider the unheard voice.

I share the exact experience as you. My mother forced me to have an abortion at 14 that I did not want to have. I know she meant well but she was more worried about what people would think than realizing that she wasn’t the best mother. I could never talk to her. I am 50 years old, happily married with 4 beautiful children that I love so much and in the back of my mind when I hear the word abortion, it all comes back. I’m in that cold recovery room vomiting and scared all over again. God is a forgiving God and he will forgive you as well as your parents. They don’t understand the pain.

I have pulmonary hypertension and i knew pregnancy is not good for women in my condition i was told i had a 50% chance of survival amd it was medically recommended to terminate i have other children amd knew i would have to 3 days ago i went and had my procedure i dont remember anything till they woke me up right away i was balling and havent been able to stop i didmt know i would feel like this and i cant deal with it im not strong enough. What have i done. ???? My baby!!! Omg ill never forgive myself ever !! What of we survived?? Now im dead too anyways im so sorry. I cant handle feeling like this i was 10 weeks. I wanna die too omg my lil baby is gone.

At the age of 21 (we were married 1972) Our daughter was born June 1974. She was less than 6 mos. old -a COLIC baby when I was pregnant again- due Aug ‘75. On April 3 my had borrowed the $275 to take care of the procedure I have as hoping he would give the $ back and he was hoping I would change my mind He had dropped me off And when he returned… other than saying I had gone thru with it It was a quiet ride home … 😞 After Over 45 years I wonder – was that my son ? What would that person have become ? In 1980. God gave us another daughter and they have been told – funny how they said they always felt like someone was missing As a Believer I know I will see that 2nd child one day …. but there has and will continue to be that emptiness until then. I wish I could go back to Feb 3, 1975.

I am married. I have a one year old son. Abortion doesn’t fit this stereotype, right? Abortion doesn’t discriminate. I suffer from a condition called HG in Pregnancy. I get deathly ill. When I started projectile vomiting after having my morning coffee, I knew. In two weeks I was at the ER as I couldn’t get the sickness under control. I had no help with my son and my husband did not care. He didn’t wear condoms like I begged. Because of Covid, there was little help at the hospital. So, I ran to the nearest abortion clinic. I needed to end this sickness so I could get out of bed and take care of my toddler. As they printed the picture and I saw the heart rate, I cried, “I cannot do this.” I explained my reasons to the doctor that I didn’t want to die and my evil husband would raise our son. She nodded, I took the first pill. Two days later, I took the second set. No one told me I would be in so much pain, I begged God to die. It was like having a knife in my tummy for three hours. I screamed. This was a million times worse than contractions. I called the nurse line. They put me on hold 5 times. That’s how much they care. When I said I feel like I am dying, they said “that’s normal.” I passed out and eventually passed a gush of fluid. I regret this choice with every ounce of my soul. I should have begged for help. I should have used my paycheck to get a nanny. I will never know that baby. My son touched my tummy and looked at me with sadness. I did this for him, but I still feel like a monster.

I was “old enough to know better” when I had my abortion. I had one child, a beautiful daughter that was 7 years old when I had the abortion. I was in a serious relationship with my previous boyfriend, and he made it perfectly clear he did not want to have the baby. I was so scared to try and do this on my own, and even though I loved the baby, I did what he wanted rather than follow my own desire. I had to drive three hours away, by myself, and I was so scared. This was more than 15 years ago, and I’ve experienced nightmares and feeling the loss of my baby through many of those years. I was told repeatedly by those encouraging me to move forward with the abortion that it wasn’t really a baby. I know now that it was, and there were a lot of development features in place. I just didn’t want to see it. I was too worried about what my boyfriend thought, and cared less about protecting the baby. I’m incredibly ashamed about that today. I have consistent fears and shame that I deal with all the time, and I also believe I’ve experienced a lot of weight gain over the years because I equate being healthy and in shape with this traumatic experience. Or, I’m just trying to punish myself. If I could go back and change things, I wouldn’t have the abortion. I would have a child now that would be graduating from high school, and I know I could have managed somehow on my own. I think removing a child forcibly in that way does something to the mother that they cannot get over. I know that I cannot at least. Yes, as time goes on, I do not think of it nearly as much. But every year I remember it. All I can say is, I regret it deeply.