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I am writing this testimony with a heavy heart💔 5 years ago I did 2 abortions were both performed at Private practice where I was never judged I didn’t see a big deal with performing those abortions because I really didn’t have any idea that I am killing
On 2019 January I found that I was pregnant again that’s where I was happy about my pregnancy and ready to be a mother I loved the journey of my pregnancy this year my daughter turned 2 and I found that I am pregnant again thou I was on a pill…I told my family about it and they convinced me to have an abortion😪😪😪I didn’t want to listen to them but they kept reminding me how my child is still young and how my life will stop if I keep the pregnancy😪😪They kept pushing and for me not being strong enough I ended up aborting again
I am in the deepest pain I wish I could undo the abortion I did….I hate myself for not being strong for my unborn
My boyfriend hates me I don’t blame him because I am evil….I think I am going straight to hell So many terminations💔💔😪😪I could have been wiser and stronger now I can’t sleep I can’t find peace My sins are haunting me

I am so sad. Profoundly sad. Every day I hurt. I want my baby back so badly. Thank you so much for this space to be allowed to express my sorrow. My baby would be nine. A lot of people around me tell me I’m stuck in a loop. I don’t talk much about my sadness. Because the judgment hurts too much. I can’t forgive myself. I wish I had been stronger and stood up for myself and my baby. I hurt so much and it has the loss has not lessened over the years!

When I was 13, I ran away from an abusive home. I found myself pregnant . I was 8 weeks when I found out. My parents were furious. She dragged me from abortion clinic to abortion clinic. I fought them off me ,I screamed. I refused. At 16weeks they took me to Bellevue Womans Hospital in Albany Ny. They wheeled me in to the operating room and I begged them to stop. They all just looked at each other but continued. I woke up feeling devastated and alone. My mother told me I’m glad the mistake was taken care of. I carry this pain. It was June13,1986. I still long for my baby.

I had sex first time at 15/16(’04-’05) with a guy who was 27. Lasted 2 seconds, hurt like h*ll, & I find out month later I was pregnant. Me & my off/on ex had “rekindled” by then. I was so excited. All I thought/talked was my growing belly. All I ever wanted was a baby. I come from tiny family. Just me, little bro, mom, & her parents. I always wanted at least 2 kids. Well 2 1/2-3 months go by turns on my bf told my mom everything (me preg baby not his) family’s mad. They told me they made appointment at Dr. This is my first experience with pregnancy in ANY way so I’m clueless. We go in the exam do test then start talking procedure I threw up started crying walked out mom picked me up we went home. I made sure to clearly & strongly voice my opinion against killing my baby. Her & grandparents then told me I had to do what they said since I was still under 18 lived at their house etc. I believed it. So then she took me to back alley Atlanta clinic mom pays the lady at desk $450-$500 I go get put to sleep got “procedure” I wake up in a mental daze/fog for weeks. Endless nightmares. It’s has been an almost steady/constant thought in my head every single day since. Now for those who don’t know that was an EXTREMELY cheap price. My coworker and I are same age and had same situation (except she wanted her procedure done) her mom paid little over $4000 we got it same city same years maybe 4 months apart. So since then me and father of baby get together engaged try to have baby for 4 years nothing. He was murdered Halloween night 9 years ago. I found out little over 4 years ago I have so mu scarring/trauma down there it’s physically impossible for me to ever conceive. My family refuses to talk about it. It kills me because my grandma wanted more kids but was only ever able to have my mother. SHE WAS 16 when she had her but all she has ever said about my situation was “you were only 16” are you serious?!?! I learned few years ago mom had 3 abortions 1 before me 1 after me 1 after little bro. To them this is like going & getting flu shot. I’m so I’ve rattled on like this. I’ve LITERALLY never talked to anyone about any of this & I bottled so much for so long I feel like I might explode. So mornings I don’t even want to get up or to wake up or even breathe. But I have 4 rescue kitties who I found abandoned 1/year 2017-2021 they depend on me to survive so it’s been my motivation for not giving in & letting go. I REFUSE to be the cause of any more deaths. I’d give anything to go back. I wish I would have done a little research but internet was still a new/exclusive thing in my neighborhood. But I could’ve went to library or something. Again sorry for rambling. Thank you for letting me finally get a little of the weight of my chest 

Not much of a story here, but I want to say that I regret my abortion and I want to tell everybody out there that it’s not worth doing. I’m 27 years old, married, we have a 3 year old daughter, and I accidentally got pregnant and we decided after a couple weeks of talking on choosing abortion. My husband really didn’t want to have another baby, we have too much going on in our lives right now, and I knew if I decided on keeping the baby that it would only destroy our marriage because he would always resent me for having the baby. I agreed with him that he was right, that it would be more of a problem on having the baby then on having the abortion. So I went with what he decided on doing, and I went to Planned Parenthood and I did it. We should have had a second child, and now I have to live the rest of my life knowing that I should be a mother to two children and that my daughter should have a younger sibling. I always felt like I was pro-choice, but I never thought I would be the one who had to make the choice, and now I’m never going to be pro-choice ever again.